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Gay Male in Toronto

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Member Since Feb 24, 2012
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Local Time November 27th, 3:49 AM

I Woke Up Feeling Depressed This Morning

Waking Up Depressed I'm not afraid of dying. I've always felt, since I was a child, that I'd die by the time I was 55. I'm 35 so that leaves 20 years left. To some this seems like a short amount of time, but for me it... [more]
5amwriterman has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Write Poetry

    I Write Poetry Most of my blogs on here are poems. Feel free to check them out and let me know what you think. You can also follow me on twitter @5amWriterMan where some of my poems are converted into p… [more]
  • detox

    Posted on: February 9th, 2013 at 10:55AM

    the windows are shakingeventually to shatteras I tip toe towards the cliffwhat a beautiful view one step closerto another dimensionbut a hand sticks outand pulls me back we drank wine togetherwe had dinner togetherwe watched tv togetherwe went to bed togetherwe showered togetherwe kissed togetherwe were naked togetherwe would never be apart dumbdumbdumbdumb the door slams shut behind usyou take me into the roomthe walls are no longer welcomingthe warmth has escaped I shudder at the tone of your voiceI can hear the cracking of an organthe reality is deafeningI hear nothing but silence we went shopping togetherwe went bowling togetherwe rode bikes togetherwe went riding togetherwe would party … [more]

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  • A Single Man - my review

    Posted on: February 4th, 2013 at 3:24AM

    I adore this movie. Since the first time I saw the trailer I knew I had to watch it. I never read the book, wasn't sure how a fashion designer would put it all together, but it stars Colin Firth, Julianne Moore and that yummy Matthew Goode. Oh how I fantasize about him. If only my lips were the ones kissing his. And the cute boy from About a Boy (Nicholas Hoult) has grown up into a very handsome man. Yum yum! The movie makes me cry every time I watch it. I see a bit of myself in George. The struggle to get up in the morning. Taking time to make myself into me, or rather the me that others expect. Readying myself to confront the world with my acting. Drinking to numb my life. Seeing the world… [more]

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  • Poetry from @5amWriterMan

    Posted on: December 20th, 2012 at 11:04PM

    Darkness permeates my soul Sunlight burns my existence Daytime brings a boil to the essence of my veins Nighttime is my daily fitness… [more]

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  • 5 am - the first draft for part of my first novel

    Posted on: February 24th, 2012 at 1:06PM

    5 am They were chasing me.  They wouldn’t stop chasing me. And they chanted, “Burn the devil child! Burn!” And I woke up. And I remembered every bit of that dream. As if it was real. Yet it wasn’t real. Did I want it to be real? No. I wanted another pill to knock me out.  Wash it down with a glass of cabernet.  And sleep again to live in a world that isn’t mine. I want a world that isn’t mine. * The alarm rings telling me it’s time to get up. I need some time to create myself in a way that others want to see me.  This person who I think they want or need.  That’s very narcissistic of me.  They probably don’t care much about me.  So why do I get up and take so much time to create this person … [more]

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