Female , 22-25
Feeling hopeful
If its not meant to be, then it just isn't going to be

Last Seen Aug 19, 2013
Member Since Feb 16, 2012
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I Want To Know If Its Possible To Love With Bipolar

To Love Or Not To Love..... I am a very big on fairytale type love, but is it really possible to have a relationship and struggle with bipolar? Or is it possible to truely love someone with bipolar? I am unpredictable... [more]
  • I Have Borderline Personality Disorder

    Not...alone?? Diagnosed about 2 yrs ago, but never really paid much attention to it until recently. I already suffer from bipolar disorder, so when the dr told me I had bpd also I was just like great another someth… [more]
  • I Am a Mother of 2

    Owning Up To Two Diva's In Pampers :) I am 21 and have 2 beautiful little baby girls. My oldest is 1 yrs old and my youngest will be 4 weeks this upcoming Thursday :) I do not really have much to say, but that they are a handful and give … [more]
  • I Had An Abortion

    Young, Forced, Confused I got an abortion when i was 15 years old. I remember it like it was yesterday. I went to go get my first female exam and birth control, but instead found out it was too late to think about birth cont… [more]
  • I Love My Big Redneck Vacation

    Relax And Enjoy I really like how they show this family having so much fun in the Hamptons. They even show the so called "stuck up" Hamptom folk how to have a blast on four wheelers in mud :) They show that it doesn'… [more]
  • dec 2 2012

    Posted on: December 2nd, 2012 at 3:12AM

    Well. I am up and exhausted and hating every minute of this whole ordeal. My fiancee is out for the night and I just can't sleep. I have been like this the past couple times he went out. I trust him. I am just insecure as hell. I hate this bc he has never given me a reason to feel this way. I don't want to tell him no don't go out. That is mean. sigh iono what to do. we got into it last week bc i thought he was cheating and wasn't. ugh k just don't know. My anxiety levels are high, i am having horrid hot flashes, i am paranoid as hell, and i just know my moods are all over the damn place. u just started back haldo and celexa so hopefully these will help with my issues and horrid depression i… [more]


  • March 31, 2012

    Posted on: March 31st, 2012 at 2:10AM

    Finishing up my chipotle and decided to do a quick blog. Emotionally, physically, and mentally drained. Tired of having to deal with insane, irrational people. It doesnt take much to please me and I long to be near somebody I love and feels love me back. These past two weeks have been a trip. I made a trip from one state to the other,  flipped out on my mom and my oldest daughters grandmother, got served with bullshit custody papers, cussed out my aunt, tried to play nice with my scheming mom, talked to iono how many lawyers, and was nice to people who I know can't stand me. I am literally 5 seconds away from checking myself into the looney bin. But honestly that is the last place I want to … [more]


  • dec 8, 2012

    Posted on: December 8th, 2012 at 11:29PM

    Cut all my hair off. Looked at myself in the mirror and couldn't turn back. I do not know weather i did it for me or to rebel against Shelton. We had a good couple of days and then tonight came. Something just isn't right. But of course that's nothing new. I want to lock him out and go to bed bc at least not having to sleep in the same bed as him is more comforting than not right now. But when he's gone i can't help to think how happy someone else must make him feel other than ne if he insists on always seeing them. Regardless how it makes me feel. I want to just make all these feelings go away, by just sleeping but the pain is always constantly in my face. Tomorrow i really don't want to be… [more]


  • Ca-Wink-A-Dink?

    Posted on: February 27th, 2012 at 7:20PM

    Last week I gathered my things after being in the dump for about a week or so. Wrote my suicide letters and then proceded to plan to committ suicide that night while everyone was asleep. I recieved a phone call and everything changed, if it wasn't for that call I wouldn't be here today. The funny thing was it was a job I had applied to. Just feeling a little bit important and the thought of being more than just a stay at home mother, and being appreciated for other skills than just what a woman is "made" to do stopped me from going through with it that night. I honeslty cannot say why that call came right before I went out the door or why I get so depressed when I see myself staying at home … [more]