I will never be perfect, so it's best if you never have expectations of me.
I've seen more in my years then I care to tell. Age doesn't come from years, it comes from experience. And I have more than enough of that, I'd like to think.
My name is Carol. I'm kind of a strange girl. Filled with contradictions, maybe a little hypocrisy. I don't claim to be a good person, because I'm not. I don't really have much of a conscience. And maybe it's my superiority complex that's coming out here, but I'm better than most bad people in this world regardless of my imperfections.
I'm pretty relaxed about life in general. People are people. They're gonna fuck up. They're gonna make bad decisions. And they're all gonna die eventually. Given all of that, not much offends me. I accept people the way they are. If they're liars, so be it. If they're cheaters, I don't care. It's in their nature. Why try to change it? I'm not gonna change, so why should I try to make someone else change just because we have differences in life style?
That view alone has made my life a lot easier than most. People put unnecessary complication into their lives. Screw that. Simplicity is beautiful, and easy.
So if you want to know more about the way my mind works, hit me up. If you don't, eh, it doesn't really matter.
- a little Native American
- and a little English
- and a little Irish
- and a little Scottish
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