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I Sometimes Feel Like I Inadvertently Insult People

I Do It Every Day And It's Killing My Relationships Not on purpose; I just say something without actually thinking and I know it's not nice because it's followed by this immediate pause. Honestly, sometimes I wish I were mute because I am a really good... [more]
Aksumite has shared 13 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Tired of Being the Fat Friend

    Uhuh They look at me like I don't even exist. The boys, I mean. And all the while, I sit there, watching there eyes light up as my friends, some flirtatious, some friendly, make conversation. I am quiet by… [more]
  • I Have Virginitiphobia

    Why I Created This Group Rape is every woman's worst nightmare, and this is understandably so. 33% of females of ALL ages will be raped in their life time. 25% of women will be raped before college graduation. For me, this di… [more]
  • I Remember My First Date

    First Date! I just came back from my first date. We had a lot of awkward pauses but I enjoyed post-dinner more, when we spent a minute or two walking around and talking. He was really respectful and did not try a… [more]
  • I Hate Racial Fetishes

    From The Black Perspective.. I won't pretend to know the in-depth issues of racial fetishistic behavior; specifically the stereotypes attributed to Latina, Asian, and even white women. I know white women are often perceived as vi… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    I suffer from virginitiphobia. It's gotten better in the last few months--- WAY better. I don't get anxiety attacks that last for days; today mine was only 15 minutes! Also, my recovery time for day dreaming about healthy relationships is longer. :]… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    Sometimes I overeat just so I can feel inside.… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    I needs someone to force their way inside of me and rip ot whatever's hiding there. And I want them to be there when it all comes out. I'm not going to lie, right now I feel like if I don't find someone who can really be there for me in person--- someone who sticks around and deals with the worse--- I'll just kill myself. Don't worry readers. Not today; not tomorrow. But soon enough. A few years; a decade, if I'm really lucky. Literally, I was happy one moment and now I am completely depressed. And then in a few days I might be happy again, who knows. I'm so EXHAUSTED from the depression, anxiety, and stress. I'm so TIRED of holding myself back because of the fear I have. I am so tired to b… [more]
  • Funny Confessions

    The Goofy Smile
    Whenever I walk to class I usually have my MP3 on and playing. Maybe it will be a serious song for a few minutes, but the moment I hear a song that truly captures my essense at that very moment, I get this goofy smile on my face because in that one moment that song has made me happier than anyone alive. So I will get this goofy smile on my face, and people stare because I am walking and there is noone beside me who made me smile. I might get wierd looks but they never know it's because of the music in my ears. I have been suicidally depressed at two points in my life; one when I was in 7th grade and tried to kill myself, and again in 9th grade. Ever since I was fourteen I have been sufferin… [more]