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Female , 31-35
IL USA

Last Seen May 18, 2013
Member Since Apr 30, 2010
Favorite Quote You cant change what you dont acknowledge
Heritage
  • a little African American
  • and a little Native American (Cherokee)
  • and a little European
Vices spending money i dont have
Politics
Horoscope Libra
Special day 10-6
Books too many to count
Music any and all
Movies Die Hard & Fatal Attraction
Local Time July 28th, 4:51 PM

I Am So Unhappy

Maybe If I Was Happy I Would Care..... The holidays are the worst times of year for me. Everyone around me is so happy about Thanksgiving and Christmas.....but not me. it just reminds me that i have no one, am miserable and just have... [more]
Alwysblue has shared 19 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Afraid of Being Single Forever

    30 Years Single...........depressing!! Well, 30 years down and still dont see a possibility of a possible relationship any time soon. This is so depressing. Everyday i see my friends on Facebook so happy and enjoying their lives with peopl… [more]
  • I Never Had a Boyfriend

    I Didn't Think It Was Me......but It Must Be While growing up i have always been the quiet one. This would prove to be my downfall throughout my life, but from no fault of my own as we each have different personalities. it all started in gr… [more]
  • I Don't Feel Like A Woman

    Man! I Don't Feel Like A Woman...... I have been unhappily single for my entire life. Every since grammer school, all i have ever wanted was to be liked. While growing up i was always the quiet one and shy. I was always the … [more]
  • I Live In Chicago

    I Have A Love/hate Relationship With Living In Chicago I have lived in Chicago my entire life, born and raised. but over the last few years i have hated living here. They say living in Chicago is a great way to meet people. well, i have live… [more]
  • 3 Strikes.......And Now You Are OUT......

    Posted on: June 2nd, 2010 at 12:28PM

    Since the end of last year i have been trying to keep up a long distance 'texting' relationship with this dude. It is a texting relationship b/c 90% of the time this guy's only communication with me is thru texting. The other 10%, which is about once a month, i may receive an actual call from him. This is NOT ok for me! I am not the type of person who believes that only texting is going to keep a relationship alive. As with any relationship, it was good at first, even if it was just texts. i was getting to know him and he was getting to know me. Now, as i had never met this guy, i didnt get into dirty talk with him. What's the point...?? We dont live in the same state......we dont talk on t… [more]

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  • Is it something wrong with ME?????

    Posted on: May 26th, 2010 at 10:50AM

    While growing up i have always been the quiet one. This would prove to be my downfall throughout my life, but from no fault of my own as we each have different personalities. it all started in grammer school so i will try to be brief: I have never been a skinny girl. while in grammer school, i was openly teased and bullied on a daily basis, but mostly about my weight, even though i was not the biggest person in my class. from 4-8th grade i never really had many friends and would always be quiet b/c people either talked about me or didnt like me. this caused me to have extremely low self-esteem and to be very self-concious. i believe these events have caused me to be the way that i am b/c i… [more]

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  • People say one thing but do another

    Posted on: May 4th, 2010 at 2:45PM

    I cant seem to find a person who is more interested in getting to know a person's mind first instead of getting to know a person PHYSICALLY first. I get so tired of men out here who say how nice and good looking you are but are only telling you what you wanna hear so that they can try and get you out of your clothes. oh, they say they like you for who you are and want to get to know you, but pressure you into doing things sexually, that both parties know is too soon to be doing. It would be so nice to meet a guy who is interested in taking you out and getting to you know you instead of trying to rush you into bed without even attempting to try to date you. Just b/c you text for months on … [more]

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  • I Don't Feel Like I Feel Like A Woman Should......

    Posted on: May 26th, 2010 at 3:34PM

    I have been unhappily single for my entire life. Ever since grammer school, all i have ever wanted was to be liked. While growing up i was always the quiet one and shy. I was always the one to be picked on b/c i guess i never stood up for myself, so i was an easy target. So, heading off to high school was such a big deal for me and i looked forward to it. Although high school was a better experience for me, i was never able to open up due to what i dealt with throughout childhood, being teased and wanting to be accepted. So, when guys never talked to me or came up to me in high school was bummed but OK with it. I always told myself that when i get out of high school im gonna get a boyfriend… [more]

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