Female , 22-25

I am an oddball who has given up trying to fit in. I have a complex mind and want to meet like minded people. I'm also an artist and have 0 patience. I love twinkies and Dim Sum.

Last Seen Dec 27, 2011
Member Since Aug 11, 2010
Favorite Quote Live for today for it is a present
Politics Anarchist
Horoscope Taurus
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Books Dice Man, Just Listen, Along for the ride, The pillars of the earth Ken Follet, Twilight Saga
Music Bon Iver, Kings of Leon, Gregory and the Hawk, Iron and Wine, Bob Marley
Movies Short, the fox and the hound, bambi, snatch, Twilight saga, Breaking bad, DEXTER
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I Am Shy

Bashful, Like A Kid I am such a shy person. If I talk publicly; from a room of 50 or a amongst a group of people or even 1 person I blush. My face goes bright red and I start fumbling with my words and stammering. I have... [more]
  • I Feel So Alone

    I Don't Matter Today I realised I'm visable when someone shoved past me... But I don't matter to anyone. No-one know's I'm here unless they need something and as I've grown older I have lost my friends. I considered… [more]
  • I Feel Out of Place In Everything, I Dont Belong Anywhere

    I Don't Get It I've always been an outsider looking in... At first I thought it was a phase and then I reached 25 and realized it's gotta be permanent. I like being the one who doesn't fit in because it means I get … [more]
  • I Am Lonely

    I Lost My Last Chance... I am lonely and always have been. I am used to me being by myself in almost every way. I look at my phone and I have nothing; not 1 missed call or text message. And then one day a girl came along and … [more]
  • I Love Meeting People From Other Countries

    Penpal I love meeting/speaking with people from different countries. It's so interesting and educational to share culture differences, so much can be gained from it. When I was a kid, I had a penpal in Ethio… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    Especially when in uniform they are so attractive! It's more the courage and bravery behind wearing it!! So.... I have a thing for soldiers especially in uniform!! … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    embarrassed because...
    I fancy the crap out of you and I don't even know you. I've seen you more than enough to know your beautiful... All I know is where you work and your first name... Wish I knew more but I'm scared of knowing more incase I fall for you.… [more]
  • Am I selfish?

    Posted on: August 28th, 2010 at 10:41AM

    I'm asking because I'm unsure... I'm 24 years old but I'm bored. I've always lived a pretty sheltered life, not to say I haven't experienced and seen things I probably shouldn't have but I play it safe in most situations... I still feel like a teen because I haven't lived. I haven't been to a festival, gone camping, taken tons of drugs or even had a one night stand. I am NOT saying I want to try all of these things but most people my age have and I feel a little young when I share my experiences. I think I'm a bit selfish for feeling like this as I'm so young and I do have responsabilities but sometimes I just want to run away and try something new, meet new people and do something unthinkab… [more]


  • I'm searching

    Posted on: August 12th, 2010 at 1:07PM

    Firstly thanks to those who took time out to read my story :) The title says it all... I'm searching. I'm a musician and a writer and apparently most creative people share this problem: It's like a void that never really fills... Every few weeks I go to this place mentally and I start doubting myself and thinking real negative. I feel ridiculously lonely and just mad at everyone that should care about me!!!!!! I think sometimes maybe cos I'm a loner: I don't get to vent verbally so maybe it's just a build up of emotions? It's mega annoying! I appreciate the spells sometimes because for some reason when I'm feeling that low I start looking for beauty, appreciating nature. The night air smell… [more]


  • Presently Not Present

    Posted on: November 2nd, 2010 at 9:33AM

    I'm listening to Carla Bruni... I can't speak or understand French which is the language a majority of her songs are but its... Beautiful music. I'm also reading Rising Tides by Nora Robert's but thinking about Pocket Notebook by Mike Thomas... Wondering if anyone's read it? It's a really cool book. Infact; the best and most entertaining book I've ever read. It had me laughing out loud and almost crying too... There's something very attractive about the main character Jake. I don't know what, maybe because he's troubled. Ah anyway, I don't know why I'm even writing this blog, I just feel quite alone, too reclusive... Alienated. I miss having intellectual conversations with interesting peopl… [more]