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Female , 18-21
NY USA

Last Seen Sep 25, 2012
Member Since Mar 15, 2012
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Heritage
  • a little Albanian
  • and a little Italian
  • and a little Native American
  • and a little German
  • and a little Polish
  • and a little English
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Horoscope Capricorn
Special day
Books Tamora Pierce books
Music
Movies Death Race, Lion King, How To Train Your Dragon, How the Grinch Stole Christmas (live action)
Local Time August 29th, 6:50 AM

I Like to Read

It All Started When I Was Little.. I never went to preschool. The first time I told someone that, it was 2nd grade, they gasped and said, "You have to go to preschool to learn to share!" But anyway, I didn't go. My mom taught me things... [more]
AngelicMassacre has shared 1 Mature Experience
  • I Was Sexually Assaulted

    The Same Guy That Took My Virginity Less Than Two Months Before I'd willingly had sex with him at the end of November, I'm not sure why, he wasn't that good looking, was known for being an ***, and was also known for sleeping around our town. He had a baby with a … [more]
  • I Never Thought I Would Fall In Love With A Soldier

    It Just.. Happened. It started on a chat site we both went to. He disappeared for a while, he had said he was deployed on his profile. I messaged him and then it led to IMing. A month in.. I was done. Just didn't realize… [more]
  • I Support Gay Rights

    And A Chair Was Almost Thrown That Day.. Government class is usually really boring. Until we have to do roundtables or do a bunch of mini debates that help us figure out if we're more liberal or conservative, the latter is what we did today.… [more]
  • I Am Struggling With Forgiveness

    The Mistakes I've Made That I Can't Seem To Get Over.. Two guys, one girl. This is already starting bad.. One is in the service, a Marine, one is unemployed with an undiagnosed antisocial disorder, or something like it. Both were sweet, though one helped … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Temper, temper..
    I'll admit it, my temper's been so quick it's ridiculous. Saying one wrong word gets someone slammed worse than I normally would have done. But.. I can't control it. I'm so upset and angry all the time. He said he'd always be there for me.. So where is he? I can't help that I love him anymore than he can help falling for someone. Thing is.. He's told me to forgive myself, but how am I supposed to do that when I ruined everything and can never have his love and affection like I did before? I refuse to even try to keep quiet when people irritate me now. I end up taking it out on my family. Or burying it and feeling like absolute hell for the rest of the day. I can't face going days without tal… [more]
  • Why You Gotta Be Anonymous?

    Posted on: April 26th, 2012 at 10:36PM

    This hit me today on my 4 minute drive to school as I was pondering something. What it was I don't remember, but the idea of why people stay anonymous on the 'net came to me. Personally, I stay anonymous on here because some of the things I say will **** people off. It's also easier to pretend you're someone you want to be. I've done that before too. Made up an entire fake person, a person that actually liked other people. I got myself in that mindset when I acted as them. Also, it's easier to share secrets when you're anonymous. Don't risk being judged, not so worried someone from your town/city will find something embarrassing, etc. It's a comfort thing. Another reason.. if you're a soldie… [more]

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  • Some Lyrics to Match Me

    Posted on: September 25th, 2012 at 11:40PM

    And I know you feel helpess now, and I know, you feel, alone, that's the same road, the same road that I'm on.. What you thought was real in life, has somehow steered you wrong, and now you just keep driving, trying to find out where you belong.. "The Road I'm On" - 3 Doors Down I wish that I could move, but I'm exhausted and nobody understands how I feel, I'm trying hard to breathe now, but there's no air in my lungs, there's no one here to talk to and the pain inside is making me numb.. Now I'm falling apart, now I feel it.. "Changes" - 3 Doors Down It's ridiculous, it's been months, for some reason I just can't get over us, and I'm stronger than this.. "So Sick" - Ne-Yo In the words of a… [more]

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  • Letters; Part 1

    Posted on: April 18th, 2012 at 11:26PM

    To "my" Marine: Thank you for not giving up on me like so many others. Thank you for making me see reason when I didn't want to. For not breaking me completely all those times that you had the chance. For forgiving me when I couldn't forgive myself. For trying to help me forgive myself. For getting me to stop crying all those nights from hundreds of miles away. For making me feel like I am not worthless. For making me smile when no one else could. For making me laugh even when I didn't want to. For showing me what a good person really is. For making me feel a little more human. For helping me as much as you have. For being there when I needed someone. But most important.. Thank you for letti… [more]

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  • Let's go back a little, towards the beginning..

    Posted on: March 22nd, 2012 at 11:01PM

    About the earliest memory I have is my fifth birthday. I was in the kitchen with my mom, and I said that I didn't feel older. I vaguely remember some things before that, like how my dad would set me in between his legs, hold my wrists, and tip me backwards on the couch, then pull me up and try to kiss me. I remember waking up early in the morning and going out to the living room and watching wrestling with my daddy while he got ready for work. I remember when he came home, smelling like tar and orange cleaner, and I'd help him get his boots off. Some nights I'd walk on his back. I used to put blankets and pillows in baskets to form a comfy seat and watch tv in them. I remember when mom had t… [more]

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