anitag 51-55, F

There is a good chance I could have ovarian cancer. I have most of the symptoms. Of course I have to go through all kinds of tests to find out for sure and so while that is going on I am fairly scared to death. I know that whatever happens is supposed to happen but I'm still kind of scared of it.… [more]

Damn, I'me watching his video "A Thousand Miles From Nowhere" where he's on the train. Good gawd the man is delicious. Too bad he's missing some on top but he could just keep the hat on, thank you very much. Fine *** cowboy. Usually not my type at all. I'm more of a T.I. type. umm hmm… [more]

I have to say that I don't really need to form any relationships because they serve no real purpose for me. I like to be with myself and only with myself I don't know why but I have always been this way except for the horrid yearning to give my children a decent father figure. I can get all I need from within because that is where God lives and He has promised to never leave me. That's good enough for the rest of my life.Being with other people tends to make a person become ingenuine and that is not something I care to be so maybe in time I can maintain my genuine self when dealing with others but not now.… [more]

I can barely stand to be around my mother. Why can't she just be a good person and be nice. I can't make any wishes of what I'd like to happen because they might come true then I'd feel guilty.… [more]