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Female , 26-30
GP South Africa

There is an idea of me; some kind of abstraction. But there is no real me: only an entity, something illusory. And though I can hide my cold gaze, and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping yours and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable... I simply am not there

Last Seen Oct 13, 2011
Member Since Feb 17, 2011
Favorite Quote Psycho (1960) (Norman Bates): "We all go a little mad sometimes."
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