aprilxxmonster 18-21, F

Before you make that first cut, remember-- You will find the blood and pain release addictive. Even though you think you can make a few tiny cuts that aren't deep and will heal easily-- They will get deeper. They will scar. They will take sometimes months to heal. And years for the scars to fade. If you think you can limit the cutting to one area of your body think again. It will spread when you run out of skin. Be prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame. Even if you are the most honest person ever to live-- You will find yourself lying to the people you love. You will jerk back from your friends when they touch you as if their hands were dipped in poison. You … [more]

Who is? When my world comes crashing down Who can I hold on to When my life is empty Who is there to fill it When my heart is missing puzzle pieces Who is going to put it together When I'm dieing Who is going to be there till the end When I look in the mirror and see all my flaws Who is looking at me and telling me I'm beautiful When I'm lying in bed alone Who is going to crawl in next to me and kiss me goodnight When I feel sounded by pain Who is pulling me away and showing me the good Who's arm will be around me when I cold Who's eyes will I look into and I will forget being scared Who is going to let me do all this for them Is there someone? Even if there is so… [more]

i don't want to say this like this but i am different and i know every other teenager says that but i know I'M not like every other kid in my city I'm the out cast and people don't accept me but i find a home on this computer talking to people that don't see me for anything but how i really am i know i have flaws that I'm not that pretty overweight and not the best at spelling ..... those r not the best things but there great because there apart of me IM waiting for that one person to see me like that tell my I'm beautiful even though i have a belly and fat that IM sweet and kind after we fight … [more]

You asked me what was wrong I said nothing You asked me why I was sad I said no reason Truthfully those words were eating me up inside because nothing was right everything is wrong the image in my head kept replaying like a broken TV Of you kissing her and not even seeing me My heart tarred into pieces after trying so hard to stitch it back up Alone at night crying till the sun comes up I've been scared to feel again Knowing my words of I love you Are always left in vacant air Cracking my shell letting the tears leak in and fill me up in till I break But still loving you no matter how much it takes Your voice is like heaven your eyes are like the drugs that keep me high … [more]