Writing is my passion. It's my way of expressing myself, since I don't do well when I try to express my emotions. =/ No one really gets me. And no one tries, because I'm a little too complicated for my own good. My mind is a mess of intricate patterns and paths that all seem to tangle up in themselves. And somewhere, my tangles all meet in the middle. In my subconscious.
Speaking of my subconscious, it's also very complicated. And it also prohibits me from expressing myself in explicit manners. I am completely unable to show off my emotions. If I try, I only punish myself.
I don't trust anyone, but at the same time, trust everyone too much.
I'm conceited when I'm confident, and annoy the heck out of people with my observations and prying questions. Most of my observations are accurate or at least close, but when they aren't, I only screw up the conversation and/or make things awkward.
So in short, I'm a man who is difficult to understand. And a man who's sanity is in question.
But I'll be honest, that's just the way I like it.
Sometimes, When I Want To Talk To Someone, But I Feel As Though There'S No One I Can Talk To . . . Sometimes, when I want to talk to someone, but I feel as though there's no one I can talk to, I'll just dial a random number into my phone and call it. It always goes to voice mail. Everytime. I've ne… [more]
She Truly Loves Me. :) I received this wonderful note today, and I thought I'd share it. :) "Anthony, I know that I don't say this a lot, but I think you are so handsome. Hm. I'm sorry that I haven't spoken my … [more]
Here'S A Free Online Copy Of The Great Hope It's truly amazing and God-breathed. thegreathope.org/assets/files/TheGreatHope.pdf… [more]
The Good, The Bad, And The Ugly I love the scene where Blondie, after blowing up the bridge and crossing into Confederate lines, finds a wounded Confederate soldier and gives him one last draw on a cigarette before he dies. … [more]
UnworthyI'm the kind of person that Googles my thoughts on a day-to-day basis. I've Googled pretty much every emotion I've ever felt towards this girl I know. It seems that there is no other person in the world who's in the exact same situation as me. I mean, everyone shares a piece of my life (divorced parents, for instance), but the sum of all of these pieces is a whole other combination than anyone else. I suppose I shouldn't be so surprised by this, but it makes me feel like there's no one who can actually provide me with a cohesive, helpful answer. Basically, I'm in love with a girl. She's so lovely. No one here can begin to comprehend how beautiful she is. I don't deserve her—I really, REALLY … [more]