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Female , 22-25
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If you wanna be my friend, send me a mail.
I don't feel like adding people who do not even care to read about me first. I am rather selfish, but it has been my standard since new year.

Last Seen 1 day ago
Member Since Feb 20, 2011
Favorite Quote You can not change who you are, you can only change who you will become
Heritage
  • 100% Norwegian
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Politics Liberal
Horoscope Virgo
Special day 9-8
Books Fantasy and Necronomicons by H.P lovcraft
Music Muse, Rhapsody and a little darkness
Movies The crow
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I Experience Magical Things

I am from a part quite far north in Norway. 2 months of dark time it is... around new year, there is a natural meteor shower if you do not use fireworks (it's quite beautiful). We also... [more]
Barlong has shared 6 Mature Experiences
  • I Have a Spirit Guide

    White Eagle So my spirit guide... he has told me not to share his spirit name with anyone on here. Respectfully with my spirit guide I am going to keep to his words. My animal totem is a whit… [more]
  • I Was Attacked By the Devil

    Waking To A Scary Thing Most times a demon, or a devil or whatever one should name it, hunts me in dreams and force me to.. well... endure pain. The demon will talk to me about a lot of things if it capture me, and no… [more]
  • I Prefer Fantasy to Reality

    Another World Inside My Heart As I was young I always had the longing inside, and I watched the sky. Always up to somewhere were the stars shot, hoping that on a wishing star I might be able to fullfill my only wish... to go some… [more]
  • I Love the Movie Dragonheart

    To The Stars Bowen, To The Stars. If there is one movie that actually can make me crie, laught and love anything, it is Dragonheart. It has one of the most epic tales I've ever known, and you always feel with Bowen and Draco thr… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    My biggest secret
    I am a Misanthrope, I do not trust humans, I am mostly disgusted by humans in general.But... there is something I have never told, and I need to confess this which I hide about me.The truth is... there is actually... one person I do not hate.I got a friend see, that person, weirdly enough is one I actually am content with being close to. I don't know why really, it's not love, but some sort of trust to that person which I can not explain. It all begun some years ago I guess... we meet in a strange way. She asked if I wanted gum, and that's how we became friends. It was a fun time, and I thaugh here how to play my home made rpg. We somehow developed it a little.I don't know why I trust her, b… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    My fault
    ....My friend had a bad dream last night... she told me she had a dream that I let cruel beings take her and drag her away. Somehow... it's my fault. She has not come back home since yesterday, and even though I wished for it, and even asked something to scare her, I did not really mean so. I am mean for wishing mean things... maybe I'll be best on my own, but it still feels like I hurt here. It was a dream though, it was not certain it was my fault, though it happen right after I cursed her for not cleaning up (in my mind). I always harm others.... it's my fault... if my feelings get to strong... I hate when it happen... I want my heart to die... then at least it can't harm others. Why now?… [more]
  • Embarrassing Confessions

    Problem
    I have only one problem. That's communication and my lack of feelings. Worst is my lack of communication. Often it lead to people thinking "Oh she ignores me, how kind. Let me return the favor" among some things online. I do it irl as well, but it's more of the lacking of noticing things and... sometimes I simply can't say anything. It simply comes no words, I think about saying something, but then, sorta my voice dies.  Often if I tried to talk to people as a kid, the words never came out, and my words mostly was ignored anyways. Maybe it is not much, but it affect me in many ways.Online people feel neglected, real people feel neglected. I don't know how to be with people. Why must I feel I… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    It might not be a confession
    But... I know I am as stuborn as a mountain and sometimes cruel and stupid.Sometimes people do not think people like me can reflect as such, so they should be happy to know I am a little rough on the edges from my own point of view, but I am not taking it as a bad sign. Honestly I would not be any other way, I like myself just the way I am. ^_^… [more]
  • Rather ignoring

    Posted on: January 14th, 2012 at 5:51PM

    Damn me, I hate to pook at some people, but this damned irritation will not go away.I hate it, hate it so badly when I know a lie, flagging in my face saying "I make fun of the damned truth!" it makes me so ******* pist!!! Arg! I wanna destroy something each time I see something that annoying, but I calm myself. I am always rash when I consider something wrong.As a hot head I must stop up and consider myself, should I take future care in such a issue? I know humans will not believe me, and considering I call myself a deamon still my words might fall lower. Even if I got a idiotic guardian angel around me... and even the truth will not change humans percpective on some things. I did not reall… [more]

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  • The strange soul

    Posted on: May 29th, 2012 at 8:41AM

    This is really weird, my soul has been strange for some days now.I feel like this urge to ... awaken something deep within me, something best left forgotten. Perhaps I failed to protect my soul.A while ago, someone was attacking my soul core, I succeded in getting them away, but... after a while I have been having weird dreams and feelings. There are images, not my own in me. Yet they appear my own, just more... realistic sorta. I can only see full shapes now, all the room around, the air between, it is to much, to clear, and I had a dream yesterday asking me to awaken the old one.I don't like this feeling, it's becoming stronger.This weird dreams... this images... they don't go away... I go… [more]

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  • Gabriels words to me

    Posted on: March 22nd, 2014 at 10:48AM

    I was sitting by a river in a spirit world. Gabriel had shown up and brought light into my soul, forcing my dark father away.I told Gabriel how alone I felt, about the darkness, and how inable I felt to escape my dark father. That I feared becoming a demon again in death, that he would drag my soul back to where I "belonged". Or worse, that I would go there willingly. That no angel would be able to accept a being like me in the world of light if I were to return there.I did not want to endure such betrayal again... I did deserve it, but not like that... I'm not going to say the exact words I used, but I was sorta down. I was certain there would be no such place as safe for my soul. Fear... I… [more]

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  • Meat eater, the fear of plants

    Posted on: April 17th, 2012 at 9:43PM

    It is not the fact that I fear plants, for I do not, but... when one is a being as me, I know what a plant truly is.I could never kill a plant with pleasure, I do not wish to eat plants at all, but one point in my life I was a vegetarian... kinda strange for someone who loves bloody meat as much as me. It lasted some months, and I ended up swallowing a pig leg in less than 50 minutes.I am quite a expert at eating much, and eating little. I can go days without food, there was two months I went with barely any food this winter and new year. But I can eat much when I really eat as well. I am not a glutton though, for I usually starve myself a lot, since I don't feel hungry. Why should I? The fo… [more]

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