beagles4me 51-55, F

I do feel as one of the others who has confessed on here. I want my own life, i want to be able to laugh again, have fun and not feel guilty about it. I want to love and be loved unconditionally--without being judged. At a time in my life when i shouldn't be worried about much, but in a situation that keeps me tore up all the time. Not sure what i can do about the situation and what will happen, but just have to trust in a higher authority and let him take care of it. I love my B/f very very much,just not sure of where we are going. He has been very supportive through the bad times in my life, it's just sometimes i feel so lonely even tho he's right beside me....just don't understand...will… [more]