Female , 22-25

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Member Since Jan 08, 2010
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I Won't Talk to You

My Mom I haven't talked to her in almost two years, nor do I ever want to again. She has disowned me and has treated the love of my life horrible. For that and much, much more, I couldn't care less if I ever... [more]
beautifulLove has shared 11 Mature Experiences
  • I Cry Everytime I Hear This Song

    Whiskey Lullaby That song always makes me want to cry if I hear it- it's been over 2 years since it haunted me and I still can't listen to it.… [more]
  • I Often Wonder What My Cat Is Thinking

    My Cat Takes Up More Of My Pillow Then I Do! He loves to sleep right next to my head on my pillow at night and hog up the space. I wonder what he's thinking during that time.... … [more]
  • I Wish My Family Could Accept Me As I Am

    Short Version Of My Story I'm living with my fiance and his family. He is my soulmate and we plan to get married one day. We are just waiting for finacial stabillity so we can have a decent wedding. My family hates him an… [more]
  • I Like To Plan Things At The Spur Of The Moment

    Last Minute Trip Last fall my fiance called me when he was at work around 10:30 that night. He asked me if I wanted to go to Chicago the next morning. I was ecstatic! He had just thought of the idea just that night. I… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I just found out what you did.
    I found the email for your online payment to xtube. It was on the 15th. I don't know yet if I'm going to tell you I'm upset or just be mad at you and ignore you the rest of the night till I figure things out. We'll see.… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Today's the first time I've logged on to EP without using private browsing
    And I don't regret anything I've said on here. I love you. I don't care anymore if you find out my secret =)… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Haven't heard from my EP friend
    Has anybody heard from rescue3? He hasn't been on since June 27th and we were supposed to talk. I am afraid something's happened to him. I have no idea =/… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    Feeling uneasy
    I had a dream last night, and my sister was in it. I dreampt she tried to kill herself because of a boy. I haven't talked to her in months, despite wishing I could. We live a few states apart. I don't normally dream of her, and I'm even more weirded out 'cause she sent me a message online early this morning. It was short, and she didn't seem to be in a happy place in life. I wrote her back, and really hope to hear back from her. I just wish we could start a sisterly relationship together, and be there for each other. I regret not being close to her when I had the chance when I still lived at home. I hope and pray it's not too late for that =(… [more]
  • Stuck At 18: Another poem I wrote over a year ago

    Posted on: February 2nd, 2010 at 12:23PM

    Stuck at 18, the pressure's on. Gotta find a career before half your life is gone. Got to pick a path now, so I can move towards it- have to start now before I blow it.Must do something, can't do nothing. With so many choices, I can do anything!But I don't want a career, why's that always the answer to life's problems? I've got better ways to solve them.I've got passions, a long for adventure, and dreams. What's so wrong about these things?I'll fly or fall, jump or crawl, whatever it takes to get there. My destination is, well, I don't know whereBut I'll find it in a song, my life lived long, or in a prayer.… [more]


  • Hide behind a smile: Another poem I wrote over a year ago

    Posted on: February 2nd, 2010 at 12:30PM

    Slap on a smile, laugh to hide the pain. If you tell them your troubles, they'll freak out and run away. So hold it all in and play along, in hopes the hurt will go away. Or you might blow like a bomb.After awhile, something will trigger, and you'll let it all out with the anger... and hate that had grown bigger.But it's been so long, can't let your guard down now, struggling through each day with the phantom you've drowned...or you want to anyway, do anything to stop the pain.Life's now a downward spiral, you're out of control, but there's someone who'll help you, trust me, I know.… [more]


  • Empty by Ray LaMontagne- I love this song

    Posted on: August 10th, 2010 at 11:58PM

    She lifts her skirt up to her knees, walks through the garden rows with her bare feet, laughing I never learned to count my blessings, I choose instead to dwell in my distasters I walk on down the hill, through grass grown tall and brown and still it's hard somehow to let go of my pain On past the busted back of that old and rusted Cadillac that sinks into this field's collecting rain Will I always feel this way So empty so estranged Of these cut throat busted sunsets, these cold and damp white mornings I have grown weary If through my craked and dusty dime store lips I spoke these words out loud but no one hears me Lay your blouse across the chair, let fall the flowers from your hair and… [more]


  • Good People

    Posted on: January 31st, 2010 at 6:32PM

    Do I believe everybody has some good in them? No. Being better then other people doesn't make you good. Having lots of money and giving alot of money to charity doesn't make you good. Do I believe everybody's good on the inside, even though they may not always show it? No. Being called a good person is tossed around waaay too much. To me, the definition of a good person is someone close to perfect. And I don't mean perfect by the world's standards. Perfect means pure, inside and out: soul, mind, health-wise, etc. Pure sums up perfect and good: can't be either without a certain level of purity. There are very few people I would call a good person. But I have met them, I have them as friends, … [more]