Female , 18-21
Feeling hopeful
today went better than i expected...hmmm, things are going well so far. 😝👌👏💕

Name change! name ish Benji..I have been through hell and back..and am doing better with my lifeso far..but i still have my moments.. Im usually quiet and shy..and I wont open up that easily. Its hard for me to trust people..but there are those i feel pretty comfortable to talk to? lol Im pretty blunt about alot of if you cant handle it..go tickle your pickle..and suck a duck..>.> I get easily attached to people and usually get ripped apart by those very ones. But yea..whatcha see is whatcha get. Theres not much to it.. (>^w^>) (

Last Seen May 13
Member Since May 16, 2011
Favorite Quote
Vices Very insecure and dances waay too much.
Horoscope Scorpio
Special day
Books Beautiful Creatures..ect (series)
Music screamo, punk rock, techno, rock, ect..
Local Time May 25th, 2:26 PM

I Love The Sound Of A Guitar

The Power Of Music... Whenever i get upset or sad or anything really.....if i listen to music with a really good guitar....i tend to loosen up and start jammin along with it....i get lost in it....when i play my guitars... [more]
BehindClosedDoors has shared 3 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Scared to Love Because I Might Get Hurt

    This Made My Tear Up A Little... :( "Boy aren't Jerks" Girl: Slow down, I'm scared. Guy: No, this is fun. Girl: No it's not!Please it's too scary! Guy: Then tell me you love me. Girl: Fine I love you.… [more]
  • I Carry A Pocket Knife

    My Pocket Knife.. Well..its about 4in when closed and about 8in when opened all the way. It a pretty kick *** knife I swear. But this one doesnt have jagged edges like my other one does. :D My parents dont know I have … [more]
  • I Fear Being Fat

    One Meal A Day... Sometimes none....Its not that Im anorexic or anything...I just dont like the fact that I eat sooo much, and then get a little belly. I want a flat stomach is all. I really enjoy being tiny. Im 110 po… [more]
  • I Love Video Games

    Roblox...o.o day I was just looking for some game to play bcuz i was really i searched google n Roblox came up...I clicked it n it came to this site alot like a legos i made an a… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    My addiction..
    Music...for all who don't my has helped me through so much..when no one was there to help me up...whether I played my music..or I was my high every time I hit the bottom...and even now...I still listen and play's my weakness..and my strength....I'm nothing without my guitar..and I'm nothing without the high that I feel with music.....everything disappears and I'm drowning in the bass...and drums...but I still feel alive...despite my attempts not always has been and always will be...infinite...til the end of time..… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I would like someone to video chat with... :( I'm bored..and would like to get to know people xD lol pm me!… [more]
  • Funny Confessions

    I'm this ish my confession..xD… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    Saturday, October 15, 2011
    Today, I died. I was swimming in deep water when some one dunked me under. Knowing I couldnt touch the bottom....i felt claustraphobic and started having a panic attack and breathing in water....i decided to just let it happen...i wanted to i sank to the bottom...and you know how they say your life passes before your eyes? well...its true...except not everything you see flash before your eyes is what you want to thing i know...i was laying on the ground surrounded by people who looked scared and worried.....then...i realized what happened......i drowned...and someone revived and saved me.........I honestly wish they didnt......i wanted to was my time....… [more]
  • why do i care anymore?

    Posted on: July 13th, 2013 at 4:48AM

    Why do i still think about that one person....when i know they have already forgotten me? I hate it..:/… [more]


  • Advice

    Posted on: June 1st, 2013 at 10:56PM

    First of all...take no bullshit from others and show them that your a strong muthafucka...second..dont care what others say or do to you...they arent worth it..**** THEM..and MOVE ON...Learn to get up on your own 2 damn feet and run...but not away from ****....Run straight for the source of your pain and and fight...because its better to have tried than not at all...and because of everything..You will become stronger than you EVER were....So dont drown in your sorrows..learn to sink or swim...and live life like tomorrow you might you might die. :3My mood: pretty alive… [more]


  • this is me

    Posted on: August 14th, 2013 at 2:55AM

    Maybe i have come to a realization that my worst enemy/demon could be myself....the inner struggle to fight for light or dark... And i have chosen both...but its the dark that i feed, feast off of, others pain and sorrow, all of which ignorance, stupidity, arrogance and deception people allow themselves to be subject to, due to whatever they ultimately choose for themselves in the decisions they make. I feed off of that. Not simply because im a cruel person, but because of the fact i allowed myself to become victim to it once, and i am no longer going to allow a world to control who i am or who i must be based on their own definition of light. I am my own light, learning and feasting off of … [more]


  • Your smile..

    Posted on: July 19th, 2013 at 9:29PM

    I hate the way you made me laugh...i hate the way you made me cry..i hate the way you looked into my eyes and told me you loved me..after you ****** me every night...i hate it when you held hands with me..or cuddled with me in your bed..i hated the way i fell for it...after all the hurtful things you said...but most of all..i hate the way i love you..the. and even Now....from the moment i saw your smile.....i Knew that smile would also bring me down...… [more]