Bella70 41-45, F
I Am Estranged From Family Members
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I Loved Someone That Didn't Love Me
Robert Why Did You Hurt Me ?He was so caring, sympathetic, loyal, loving everything I wanted and he did not love me back. He gave me love letters and cards and proclaimed his love for me by holding my hand and getting all s… [more] -
I Daydream Constantly, About Everything
Why Am I Preoccupied With My Ex Lover For ?I think of him constantly and it has to sto… [more] -
I Am Happily Married to My First Love
I Wish I Had Married My First Loveit didn't work out we dated for a little while and I thought everything was fine he treated me very well but he just drifted away it reminds me of that song from Barbra Streisand "What Kind… [more] -
I Am Estranged From Family Members
Don't Miss Them !I decided a long time ago that life is too short to be around people who are detrimental to themselves and the world around them. Why should I subject myself to their cruelty and abuse. This is my lif… [more]
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I hate lifeI haven't found meaning in it and hate it and I am in shock I haven't killed myself yet people use and abuse and talk about integrity but don't practice it what is the use for religious institutions and school when no one follows the rules and the 10 commandments a complete joke no one follows that and everyone I've seen is crude, rude, crafty liars and those are the people that get a head in life ........ I HATE LIFE I am not a good liar so I haven't been able to keep a job to lie to customers or whomever else and I haven't found meaning so what is this life for ? … [more]
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I want a man to tell that he loves meand appreciates the little things in life and not make a big mess of everything I am tired of the bullshit I want someone to look deep into my eyes and tell me he loves me and with a warm tight hug on a winter night by a fire and snuggle thats all ! is that rough ? I've been thinking of someone and want to rekindle with this person again and I hope to do so in the future I miss him he cherished me and I let him go and that was my mistake. I hope we can both get through this life together. Bella70… [more]
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Why am I prone for bullshit for ?I reconnected with a friend from an old neighborhood I use to live in and this person cut me off ! and joined a crowd of shallow idiots who like to go to bars and drink themselves into oblivion so when this person finally got her act together we became friends again but she has her ******* moments and friends and I don't quite fit in they view me as being a snob or whatever their views are and I see them as having lack of integrity and no decorum and whatever else ! I think if they want to throw stones maybe they should hear some of their own crap I have always been defriended or double dealed because I don't socialize with certain people or the "in crowd" so to speak. I would really love to… [more]
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Tried to give my daughter the things I didn't havebut she is ungrateful for it she asked me to wear a gold cross of hers and when I looked for it it was missing I have a feeling she had taken it and sold it or something as a matter of fact when I inquired about all of her jewerly I found it was all missing and I'm like WHERE DID IT ALL GO ! and she said to me I don't know it is somewhere around here ! I searched her room from top to bottom and found nothing and what is even more disturbing is that she doesn't care and she is ungrateful I worked hard for what I give her and she doesn't care. I told my husband of the situation and he said "SO" we won't give things to her anymore but I am so upset and he doesn't even care about the situation a… [more]
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Holding my pillow at night for far too long and wanting someone to hold
I am need of love and attention and would love to give love and attention too and I want to make lots of love and feel secure in someones arms for once ! is that too much ? someone intutive, compassionate, kind is there such a man or am I just dreaming ? Bella … [more]
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Sailing into the Mystic
A song I loved from Van Morrison I wonder what happened to the love and commitment I love that song it is so beautiful I wish I had a loving guy to serenade me to that song. Caring touching, authentic heart it seems like everyone around me just runs some kind of racket like an innocence has been taken away from what we learned as children from church to school and how real life is and how people want us to be as in business or other activities. Whatever happen to being authentic ? Bella … [more]
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Afraid of my daughter growing up
Today was a horrible day for a town that is near mine some of the camp counselors were going over to another park and got into a terrible car accident, 3 of them died and 2 in critical I am so afraid that my daughter will be in that situation someday I know she wants to become a counselor which I would love for her to do but I have to say be careful and the cars you go into. Today she admitted she was in the car with a girl she goes to the park with and her older sister was driving. I said that won't be happening again since this is not a parent and you are with an inexperienced driver. Please be careful I can't believe that the kids perished in the car accident today but it happens and I am… [more]
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My Job JUST SUCKS and it also has affected my health my feet
and it has for a while I am going to the doctors this week to have it checked unfortnately I have the type of job that requires me to stand all the time and requires a lot of customer service I can't do physical work anymore it is getting out of hand ! it really hasn't worked out for me this job but I feel really guilty like I am giving up but this job requires me to run 3 departments by myself and no help ! I am not wonder woman the company is making cut backs and we are all feeling the effects from the economy but I personally can't do this anymore it is taking a toll on my health and my personal life and I am getting treated like crap and yelled at from the customers ... I wanted to go … [more]
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