Male , 22-25

Last Seen Nov 13, 2013
Member Since Sep 05, 2011
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I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

No, You Don'T Understand. When I say I don't have friends, I'm not being dramatic. When I say I don't have any family to talk to, I really mean it. When I say I have no way to get a job, I really can't. [more]
  • I Battle Depression

    Blank Bored And Down I'm not really sure where everything went wrong, or right. It really depends on how you see things and, with the friends and family I have I'm not really sure at all either. Some people would say I am… [more]
  • I Battle Depression

    Why Should Anyone... Why should anyone care? I don't think anyone really does, and if they do I haven't met them. This thought has been swirling in my head lately as I go over the reasons for or against d… [more]
  • I Fight Depression and Loneliness Everyday

    Feel Like My Life Is Over... ...and yet it has barely started. I'm only 22. How could I possibly think life is over? Well I got some news for you. The science backs it up. Turns out time really does speed up as you g… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I hate being an adult
    As someone who lost some friends growing up, and now I'm 23, unemployed, depressed and severely anxious, it is seriously hard for me to imagine doing anything. Making friends especially.  Every way people say to meet people sounds more and more like an extremely awkward adult playdate. Also at this age, I can finally see that nobody really cares how you are doing, and in most cases is put of be even the slightest hint of depression or nervousness.You are all being pulled around by animal behaviors and we think we are better than the rest of the animal kingdom? We haven't gotten very far when we still fear the downtrodden.… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    I hate that I want to be loved
    I'm not very social. Nor do I really want to be. I don't hate people, but I just don't find any particularity interesting. I think I would have a good life if only I could get this stupid feeling of lonliness out. I hate having the feeling. I could be doing other things, but instead all I feel is crushing pain. I don't want to work my *** off just to find someone who may or may not make me feel even worse.… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I'm a man with no integrity.
    So I tiptoe out of my apartment to not wake neighbors. I walk down the sidewalk, making sure to avoid eye contact. A women asks me for a cigarette.  I only got a couple left but I give her one anyways because it's easier than saying no. I had planned to grab a hot chocolate at the cafe but instead I got a coffee. Makes me look less like a loser in front of the kids 5 years younger than me city inside the cafe. I can barely get the words out to the cashier to what my order is. I feel hot eyes penetrating my back.This was one of my better walks.… [more]