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I Am Not Happy In My Relationship

Loveless And Lonely he's downstairs right now making breakfast and telling jokes. they all sound so happy. my son comes and says sorry there's not gonna be enough for you. why bother? he plays mister nice... [more]
blknurse has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Hate Myself

    Cant Stop Feeling This Way i cant help but hate myself.  its just a feeling that wont go away, no matter what i do.  i pray all the time.  i make a mental note of all the things i have going for myself. … [more]
  • I Wanna Be A Singer But I Cant Sing

    Im Taking Singing Lessons I can't sing. Seriously, my voice has been compared to the sound of a dying cat. I'm ridiculously jealous of people who can sing.  So at damn near 30 years old, with kids, a career, and tryin… [more]
  • I Hate Myself

    Feeling Better These Days..... last time i was here i talked about hating myself.  i really felt this way.  i felt like i was a waste of space.  I'm feeling much better these days.  Ive done so much recently.  decided to go ba… [more]
  • I Would Rather Be Alone Than Be With the Wrong Person

    10 Wasted Years.. i was so wrapped up in not being alone, that i spent years with my head in the sand. i never loved me or trusted me. over the years he made me miserable. now its finally over and i feel so broken. … [more]
  • Love Confessions

    yesterday was good, but today...
    Yesterday was good. I was feeling strong and confident. I even affirmed myself to him. I am going to therapy. I am doing my work. I am trying to heal. But today, today was really hard. Today was so hard. I argued and said things, I made I hard onon,myself. I completely regressed. Today was hard. I know what I want. I know what I need. I should be moving forward. Tomorrow will be better... Sorry for the typos...thanks Android!… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    i hope you fail
    i hope you fail. at work, at love, at life.  i gave you so much, but it was never good enough.  you never appreciated it all.   so now, i want to watch you fall, watch you trip, watch you struggle.  maybe then you'll realize how good things were.… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I am worthy
    U made me feel like u wasn't good enough. Had me struggle to prove my worth. I am worthy. I deserve to be loved by someone whole heartedly. As I give love while heartedly. While I am flawed I am worthy.… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    being Co-dependent sucks...
    We are drawn to each other like magnets. Yet we make other miserable. Lord, now that I understand I am Co dependent, please help me heal. I need to break the ties that bond this awful marriage. I need to find myself and love myself....… [more]