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BlkSpinster 36-40, F
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I Feel Like a Failure Sometimes
Trying To Improve But Getting Nowhere
I have been working on myself for a while now. I suffer from depression, have low self-esteem, and have trouble taking responsibility for my actions. I am currently in therapy and am taking meds...
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I Am Afraid I Will Never Find Someone to Really Love Me
The Bottom Of The Dating BarrelI am a smart, overweight, bespeckled black woman. The ideal that most men seem to want are skinny dumb white women.I can not compete with that.I am not "sassy". I don't h… [more] -
Good Enough To F#$%, But Not Good Enough To Love.I'm going to share something that causes guilt and shame to rise inside me. I've only had two boyfriends in my life. It's been ten years since the last one. After that relationship I've n… [more]
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Never had a kiss I liked.I haven't kissed anyone for over two years now. Looking back I don't think I've ever had a kiss that I've enjoyed. I remember the majority of kisses I had, and most of them involved slobbering one way or another. My first boyfriend spat in my mouth when we kissed for the first time (age 16). COnsideringthat I'm not going to marry, I would like to experience one really good kiss before I die.… [more]
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What's it like to be a white woman?Sometimes I get very jealous of white women because every man in the world seems to want them. The only men who are remotely intersted in me just want to fullfill a deep-seated fantasy based on sterotypes. It's bad enough that the pretty ones are in demand, but when I get passed over for the Honey Boo Boo/Jerry Springer Trailer Trash types, that's a slap to my face. It leaves me spending way too much time wondering what's it like to be a white woman, even just for a day. It woudl be nice to have all races of men desiring you instead of dismissing you because of the sins of some.… [more]
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