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  • Have you ever wondered?

    Posted on: October 11th, 2011 at 8:50PM

    Well, my last post sure sounded like I'm a bitter and hateful woman. I'm not. I know that what has happened is for the best. I guess I just needed to get all of that off my chest since I don't really have anyone to talk to. Any way, it's being put behind me now.A friend at work asked me if I was ready to date. I told her no. The thought of being involved in another relationship makes me feel queasy. In my heart I feel it's time for me. I've been the wild girl. I've been the wife. I've been the mom. Now, I just want to be me. I don't feel like a relationship with someone is needed to get me to this place of "me." I feel it's something I have to do on my own. When I was married, I had limitati… [more]


  • Like a tree.

    Posted on: May 27th, 2012 at 7:15PM

    I walk around the house, looking for something that will motivate me. I sit and stare out the window, hoping something will inspire me. I'm not seeing anything. So, I cruise the internet. Maybe there's something there. Mostly it's just depressing and stupid and not anything I haven't seen before. Same old crap, just different versions with rearranged words. Then, I start thinking that's how it basically is with everything and everyone. Different versions, different people, but it's all been done before. Everything I think, everything I feel, has been done and felt by someone before, and will be done and felt by someone after me. I feel like the tree outside my window. Imagine being a tree. B… [more]


  • I knew this would happen.

    Posted on: October 10th, 2011 at 10:34PM

    So, today I found out that I have been officially divorced since August. Reason? Couldn't make the 850 dollar a month house payment. Lost house. Moved and didn't leave a forwarding address. Why? I didn't want anyone to know where I was. Especially him. I knew he was filing for a divorce. He only went for it after I confronted him and told him that he should get one because it wasn't fair to the new woman in his life. Yep! 4 months after my last contact with him, he had already found someone else. That's when he confessed and told me that she didn't know he was still married. Infact, he had told everyone in his family that we had been divorced for quite a while. Selfish...yes. But, that's how… [more]