Female , 36-40

ive had 4 nevious break downs, suffored from PTSD,anziaty,panic attacks,cronic deppression ,been diagnosed with bio ploa ,multiple personality....after 20 years i decided not to listen to the doctors and i began healing myself, i did so well that i decided to become a healer

Last Seen Nov 11, 2012
Member Since Apr 14, 2009
Favorite Quote born with it my arse your born with it !
Vices food, a good book,pranic healing,tarot reading
Politics Very Liberal
Horoscope Gemini
Special day
Local Time

I Won't Allow My Future to Be Detroyed By My Past

Freedom freedom is what i seems to elude me......maybe i am already free because i desire it as those that live in a world unaware of the impact that there past has had on them will never be... [more]
bohemianbeauty72 has shared 4 Mature Experiences
  • I Want to Know What I'll Be In My Next Life

    In My Next Life in my next life  i wana be an insect who devours her mates after intercourse that way i will insure no trouble in my future.… [more]
  • I Wish That I Could Sleep In Your Arms Tonight

    I Spend Almost Every Day By Your Side,yet Every Nite I Wish I Could Sleep In Your Arms every day i work along side one of my closest and cherished friends.We have spent the last 2 years walking to work together,climing numious hills exploring many new paths,weve shared laughter,pain,… [more]
  • I Use Herbs For Medical Reasons, No Marajuana

    Deppression and Anziaty i use passion flower dor deppresson and anziaty ,st johns wort and i take vitamin B complex for the strengthinig of my nervious system and magnisim ,cal ,tissued salts for stess and vitamin c.prani… [more]
  • I Am In Love With a Commitment Phobic, Help

    My Best Friend hes my best friend has been for 2 years,our realationship was always odd.we have always treated each other like partners so much so that our work mates thought we were having an work affair.he avoi… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    for the last 2 years its been the same way,andrei my best friend tells me he wants nothing more than friendship ,i then fall to peices with a broken heart then i pick myself up again promising myself that im not going to do it again then sure enough over time i start beliving therse a chance for dosnt help that one minuite hes into me then another he goes cold ...then he tells me again theres no chance and i fall to piecies again ...last time this happened was realy bad for me and i sunk into a deppressesd state so i finaly realized that there was no chance so i decided to focas on myself and get on with it ..i started doing all that i wanted like meditation ,writing ,reading ,walkin… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    i feel so vanuralble atm
    last nite i went for coffe with a work mate it was the 2nd time,it didnt take long to begin, panic and paranoia ,i knew my perseption was out and i doubted my mind.i felt like i was watching a move ,like what was happening wasnt real, i could stop sweeting and at the time i thought my work mate was making fun of me and having ago.he wasnt i dont think ,i was paranoid and why?because ive recently develloped something of a phobia about people, attachment?when i was a child my mother who was a normal mother most of the time ,she would out of the blue for seaminl;y no reason flip out in a rage and verbaly abuse me over and over again , and all threw my childhood she always acted as though it ne… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    i was diagnosed with bia pola 8 years ago and heaverly medicated, for the last 4 years ive been off meds and had very serious doubts about that diagnosis but over the last couple of days ive had paranioa and ive been rather permiscuis, yer ive been putting out people which isnt like me and its with random strangers,me im normaly quite morelistic and dont sleep around, mmmm ive also been increadibly angrey and agitated.funny though i started out quite deppressed at the begining of the week, so what do u think?please if anyone suffors from bia pola id love your opinion.should i worry about the resent change in my personality or just accept this side to myself as a part of me ?… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    secretly deep down inside i dont think im ever gona lead a simple happy life, im tied and al i wana do is rest, be still,stop.sometimes i just dont wana be scared… [more]
  • fear

    Posted on: June 12th, 2009 at 7:06AM

    i think fear is the very thing that makes life unbareable it can ensure that some never realy can cause some to never persue there dreams .it can cause deppression and anziaty .it causes the weak to be abusive in relationships .its the reson most drug addicts and alcholics use the cruches that they do.fear can cause hatred and violence.fear i live with it every day as we all do ....but i do have the courage to try to fight it as once you over come fear what u then have is succses.not social or materilistic no i mean true succsess thats comes from iner challange and acomplishment because thats where true self esteam comes from.with in............… [more]


  • breathe

    Posted on: October 1st, 2009 at 10:46PM

    all i need to do is i let it out or do i keep it in?sob all i need to do is sob......My mood: extremely devastated… [more]


  • im trapped

    Posted on: August 17th, 2009 at 5:38AM

    im trapped in an abusive relationship with the father of my children, my ex husband.hes been using the kids for 7 years to contol me and emotionaly abuse me.his has been and still is one of the biggest triggers in my life for my deppression and children are trapped aswell and being used as porns,manipulated and emotionaly abused to serve in his vendeta to get back at me for leaving him .he hurts my children to hurt me buy brainwashing them and telling them terible things about there mother.ive done some reserch and this is increadibly damaging as it can cause in the adult hood ,deppression ,anziaty ,pharania,dissasocation ,bia polla ,splits in personality and codependancy.the cour… [more]


  • my experience so far here

    Posted on: July 20th, 2009 at 6:15PM

    ive descovered that there are alot of perverts on here that will **** over anything,there are also alot of lonely people who use this site as a dating site,there are alot of geuine people as well and alot of very kind people.yes there are alot of ****** up people and meany leval headed people as well. no different than the real world.......onley here i can off load and be heard then shut down my computer and carry on with my life never burbening those that sorround me that i love....cyber space is a nother life that u can enter and leave at will,unlike our realities My mood: somewhat bouncy … [more]