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Feeling depressed
it's getting bad again. venting to come....

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I Am Severely Depressed

It's gotten too bad. The feelings are back. If emotions were a ladder this is how they'd be listed. Happy/peaceful is on the top, followed be the slightly discomforted. then comes sad, not can't stop... [more]
c0nfus3ds0ul has shared 5 Mature Experiences
  • I Fell In Love With My Best Friend

    Besti=crush? so i wont say her name for her privacy so il call her k. she is my best friend. since freshman year. she is a year younger than me so i met her in a group my friend and i had started called unity. it … [more]
  • I Feel Like I Am A Burden To The Ones I Love

    Why Me? i feel like i am a burden. i know, thats the point of this group. but i do. i feel like there is always something wrong with me and this is true in my eyes. to me its true and it makes me feel like i … [more]
  • I Am a Closet Lesbian

    Bi At School, Straight At Home, Lesbian At Heart so i know i am a lesbian. but at school thats like a sin. so i settle for half way. i am bi at school and straight at home. the only places i feel i can be myself are on here and with my closest frien… [more]
  • I Fell In Love With My Best Friend

    Besti= We Dont Even Talk Anymore... so i had been off a long time because there was something wrong with my computer had something wrong with it. i finally got it fixed and im back on. anyway. what had happened with K is that we took th… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I want...
    I want someone who can look i my eyes and know something is wrong. I spent a lot of time in my past perfecting a smile that I use all the time and now everyone thinks I am happy. I want to smile at someone and they look at me and say what's wrong. what happened. Who hurt you?are they out there.… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    It is looking better and better by the moment. But then I think I wanna be the person people can look to and say "you give me hope."… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    ......i told my best friend i am a lesbian....she was ok with it....i was relieved and feel that everyone should be able to tell someone and feel this way. i encourage you to because the person may surprise you with their reaction… [more]
  • unable to friend

    Posted on: July 28th, 2011 at 4:35PM

    so i just wanna say a short piece because im not really in the mood to write but a member on ep messaged me about adding him. but when i went to go to his page it said i could not view it because it had some POSSIBLE inappropriate stuff on it. now i understand that im not 18 yet but i think that instead of having a for sure block on it, that we should get a notice about the possibility of the innapropriate content and choose for ourselves to continue.well thts what i think. i sent a message to the support group and hope to hear back from them.zzMy mood: extremely incredulous… [more]


  • first

    Posted on: July 20th, 2010 at 5:32PM

    so im relatively new on the site but i feel kinda safe here. im working to feel safe in my home and at work. at the moment it isnt working too well but i will get there. ummm i am a bi girl who has decided to not be limited by lables bcuz lbles just giv others an excuse to hurt u. i like to put experiences on post and will keep at it but will not tolerate mean or cruel word in the comment box so please refrain. thts all for nowMy mood: extremely rejected… [more]


  • Bullies

    Posted on: November 4th, 2013 at 7:43AM

    SO currently I am working on a new story/essay type thing that will tell my tale of childhood bullying and the effects it has had on my life as an adult.I will include a discussion between one of the people who stood by and was a bully by association.The time I spent in the psych ward at rainbows hospital.My suicidal thoughts and actions.My coping mechanisms.and having friends that were able to help me gain confidence and hope that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.hope it works. … [more]


  • okkkkk

    Posted on: August 19th, 2011 at 6:31PM

    ok so in my experiences i have put that i am a lesbian. that is because i see myself as that. i dont have feelings for guys and i dont see myself eith a guy at any point in my future.for now i just tell people on here that i am lesbian because the people in my outside life will never understand the type of stuff im going through. my only gay friends are guys and theyr perents already know. at home i need to be straight which i think in turn really messed me up. sometimes i look at guys and think that my rents would like me to date someone like that. but then i think no its a guy. (not i cnt like him bc hes a guy. i dont like him bc hes not a girl) anyway. i feel like i hafta be bisexual at s… [more]