I have decided after saying that I will many a times that I am going to make an anonymous blog. The reason being that I feel I need to express myself in a way that I can talk freely without my identity being attached to my words.
Throughout the day I think of everything, that I feel I need to record. So my posts will be inspirational at times but depressing at others, funny, happy, sad, random, silly. You name it. It will contain the ramblings of my mind.
I have chosen a name to represent me (As I had to have a name to use this)
I did not just want to make up any old name so I have become Calypso Chisisi. This name represents my anonymity.
Calypso meaning "She that conceals" and Chisisi mean "Secret".
I hope you enjoy all that I have to say and follow my blog if it is of interest to you.
I dont mind either way I am writing for me, if I can touch others in any way at the same time that is just a bonus!
- a little Guyanese
- and a little Jamaican
- and a little English
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So I have been down memory lane, looking at pictures when life seemed so much simpler. I didnt seem to care about too much back then. I had friends I genuinely enjoyed being around all the time, now my relationship with those same people feels strained. Now the friends that make me feel that way when I am around them I can count on one hand. I guess thats what happens as you get older.Home life has never been amazing but it was a hell of a lot better than it is now and there is not much I can do about that except stay away enough to appreciate being there the times that I am.I had a lot I believed in and hoped for, my beliefs and hopes now are extremely different now. The person I am is comp… [more]
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I have decided after saying that I will many a times that I am going to make an anonymous blog. The reason being that I feel I need to express myself in a way that I can talk freely without my identity being attached to my words. I have found a time in my life where I am finding it very difficult to confide in those around me in fear of being judged or put down. I feel that I am losing faith and respect for a lot of people that I have previously been close to and would like to use this page sort of like a diary. Throughout the day I think of everything, that I feel I need to record. So my posts will be inspirational at times but depressing at others, funny, happy, sad, random, silly. You … [more]
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