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Female , 18-21
Feeling scared
the truth comes out a little at a time.

As a girl, I am silly and adventurous. As a lady, I am polite and put-together. As a woman, I am myself completely for whoever I may be.

Last Seen Sep 2
Member Since Jul 21, 2010
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  • a little Irish
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Horoscope Aries
Special day 4-18
Books Saving Max, The Adventures of Tom Sawyer
Music Nickelback, Bon Jovi, Skrillex, Justin Bieber, T. Mills, Usher, All Time Low, The Beastie Boys, Miley Cyrus and COUNTRY.
Movies Stand By Me, Cabin in the Woods, American Pie, Star Wars, Jurrasic Park trilogy, Varsity Blues, Scary Movie series.
Local Time October 1st, 4:20 PM

I Love to Write

Enemies And Allies What brings me to write this experience were experiences of my own, first and foremost, but secondly my thoughts regarding friends and enemies after encountering the subject in English class. [more]
CarlyOnline has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Love Smoking Cigarettes

    Smokers Understand So, I know that you all smoke but how many of you find it actually attractive? Do you see someone with a cigarette and think...¬†you were¬†attractive before you lit that cig, but your even… [more]
  • I Drink Red Bull

    Wings Of No Worries Red bull commercials claim that you get wings when drinking red bull. I might have to say I agree, because when I'm drinking red bull, I feel so in tune with my world and every sip reminds me that lif… [more]
  • I Am Scared of Relationships

    One Night Cuddle I met this great guy, he was very real, had a big heart....one of the few boys my age who would have actually cared about me. And it took me all of one night to back out. We had such a great time, fli… [more]
  • I Want to Go Out On a Date

    Old School Dating What happened to the old fashioned date? If you are dating someone, you are not exclusive. If you are seeing someone, you are not exclusive. If a mutual agreement is made betw… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    Did that hit you the way it hit me?
    I confess, I had no buisness with her boyfriend those nights in the hallway after practice. Its true, I knew better, but I couldn't help falling under and being affected the way i did and was. He never will and never did understand what he meant to me, or the way he made me feel. I still want to know what it would have felt like to take that one, extra, step towards the way we both felt. I mean, don't you ever wonder anymore? How can you tell me looking at me doesnt make you wonder. Life is different now though. A little more heartless everyday.… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    I won't let this win
    I had the most horrible feelings about many things this year, but one that has still haunted me, even outside of school, is the way I felt about and acted around one of our exchange students, Jorge. He was absolutely gorgeous, in everyway. He said "Hi" to me often. we talked. But I couldnt help frolm flirting and coming on to him. He never seemed to mind though. Really, and he was quite goofy. I did some things that would embarassed me but hey, we all do. It wasn't a big deal. Anyways, my confession is that I feel so stupid and ditzy for the way I acted around him. I miss him very much, and wish I could do some moments over. I guess though, that what I miss the most is laughing wi… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    You've got me, I confess.
    This is my confession to you, My best friend. I don't know if you'll ever get the chacne to read this or not, but let me lay this out. I love you, with all my heart hunnie, you've been there for me through the thick and the thin, my 16th birthday, on the other side of my cell phone when i had tears i just couldnt stop...but you should know I have one very big problem, and it eats away at me like a wall of termites loose at a furniture store. You break my confidence, constantly. I sometimes want to hide in a box or avoid being with you because I know that your always the one people will like more, find more attractive, enjoy your jokes more, anything....its always you. I never like knowi… [more]
  • All Mixed Up

    Posted on: July 22nd, 2010 at 1:27PM

    Now, I'm sorry if this gets lengthy, and I'm sure it will get wordy, but it's time I let this out. Boys...you just are not worth it! I've been left with my heart in confusion and pain, and anger, because you guys can just walk away whenever you want and not feel a thing! How can you have no regaurd, no feeling or thoughts about they way you act!? Your people too, with emotions....right? I don't know what turned men, boys, into such heartless beings, but I'm so sick of taking a chance just to fall flat again. I'm not looking at you guys, asking about you and trying to get close to you just so you can turn around and rip my heart out because I gave you that power. I hope you know that … [more]

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  • Up, Down, Inside Out.

    Posted on: July 22nd, 2010 at 12:46PM

    Life is not one big loop, that plays on an endlss cycle. You have one set of years to make yourself into everything your supposed to be. Life is a big deal, and there are many things in it that play important roles before you make your exit. So, why do I feel like my life, going the way it is, is just one predictable, repetitive sequence of events. Everyday is the same...not down to the little things, but I mean in general. My parents will give me some lecture, I'll have cross country practice, text the same people and not do anything all day. Then I'll go off to work and come home, tired, sleep and wake up only to repeat the exact same cycle. It's so boring and I want variation in m… [more]

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