CassieWritesLove 18-21, F

I haven't thought of you since I told you that we couldn't speak to eachother, but the past couple days you're the only person I've thought about. I miss talking to you every day, I miss your hugs, I miss our inside jokes, I miss YOU. You were the only person who could ver put a smile on my face no matter what was going on and today I really need you. I just wish I knew if you actually miss me, or if my assumptions are still true; that I always loved and cared about you way more than you ever did for me.… [more]

There was a spider on the wall next to my bed, I grabbed something and tried to hit it but I am unsure if I did. Now I cant find it. and now I'm paranoid that this HUGE spider is going to come attack me with all its friends because I tried to kill it. Damnit!… [more]

I want to use so badly right now, but I know that one moment of being high will take me right back to where I left off. Its like I want to get high but I don't want to want to get high. This obsession is consuming every second of my life and I just want it to stop. Too much will never be enough for me until I die, and right now I really like being alive, but the insanity of this is that I can't stop thinking about it.… [more]

No matter how loud I am, how bodly I dress, how crazy my ideas are etc. I feel like no one in my life really listens to me, like when I speak they don't hear the words coming out of my mouth. People are supposed to listen and be there for those they love, so why does nobody care what I have to say? Why doesn't anybody just punch through my wall and rip out the truth from inside me?… [more]