Female , 26-30

I'm here to share stories, support, be supported, and to write. If you are here for kink, and I use that term broadly and without judgment, I\'m not your girl. Please don\'t take it personally if I delete or ignore you. If you have kink in your profile I can\'t reply to you without spending tokens, even if I wanted to. Thus don\'t be surprised if you don\'t hear from me.

Last Seen Apr 9
Member Since Oct 08, 2009
Favorite Quote what doesn\'t kill you makes you stronger
  • a little Italian
  • and a little German
  • and a little British
Vices eating, drinking LOL
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Gemini
Special day
Music most pop and rock
Local Time April 19th, 4:46 AM

I Am Spoiled

I feel like most of the time on here I am complaining about all these problems I have. But the fact of the matter is that I am really lucky. I have all I could ever want. I have food and shelter and... [more]
CatalinaVanilla has shared 15 Mature Experiences
  • I Am a Sensitive Person

    I Am Sooo Sensitive I'm not egoistic, I'm sensitive.  When I overhear people talking, I often think they are talking about me.  I don't think this because I think I am great or because I warrant being talked about… [more]
  • I Love Good Beer

    What's So Great About Beer? A friend of mine who never drinks recently asked me why I like drinking beers.  An answer came to me that I find rather apt so I'll repeat it.  Having a few beers is like coming home after a long, h… [more]
  • I Binge On Food

    To Binge Or Not To Binge I guess it's appropriate I write this on St. Patrick's Day, but I think it's mostly just coincidental.I often see binging as evil.  And, in my mind, being productive is good.  My soul is… [more]
  • I Binge On Food

    Binging As Meditation? I wonder if part of why I binge is because it affords me a rare focus. Usually my mind is spinning in a million directions at once – almost all of which are futile and probably neurotic. But wh… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    existential crisis
    Here it is: I'm not a failure, I'm worse. I'm someone scared to fail so I don't even try. I started realizing all this when I was smoking out last night and I had been too scared to write about it all day. But now it's time to face it. I've lived my life halfway for many years now. When I was in high school and beginning college, my life was ful of possibility. My dad and teachers had me believing I could be anything. The sky was the limit. I got into a good college and life was limitless. I was thin, people liked me. Part of me still believes all that. Under all this fat, depression, ambivalence, fear and listlessness, I am still all that possibility. But I am scared to reach for… [more]
  • words words words

    Posted on: February 17th, 2011 at 5:55PM

    Why do people say “out of pocket?”  It doesn’t really make much sense.  If they are out of town, they are not out of pocket.  They were never in my pocket to begin with.  I really don’t quite get it.  I let it go the first few times and even said it a few times myself.  But now it is starting to annoy me.  Certain terms and expressions start getting on my nerves because they seem to bespeak a general laziness.  Just like “I am going to try and stop them.”  That is completely wrong.  Technically, that means that once you are done trying you will stop them.  The outcome is a foregone conclusion.  But, from context, I know this is usually what the speaker intends.  They really mean that they ar… [more]


  • oops, I did it again

    Posted on: February 17th, 2011 at 10:55AM

    Last night I didn't have plans.  The gang wanted to get together tonight and not last night.  So I was at home, chatting online and having some beers.  I thought that if I had enough beers, I might be full enough to skip dinner.  But after chatting for an hour and a half with Howard on the phone, I realized I was hungry anyway.  I ordered some pizza, which didn't get here until 10:30.  I wasn't done until about 11.  I hate being in that position!  I was so tired I could barely stand (no, it wasn't the beers!) but I couldn't go to bed because I had to let it digest.  I barely kept my eyes open until midnight and then I had to konk out.  I'd like to blame the violent rain attacking the roof in… [more]


  • saving

    Posted on: May 16th, 2011 at 9:03PM

                      I was listening to a commercial on the radio today.  They were talking about how much money you can save by buying a Toyota.  They say it like it’s a good thing.  But the fact of the matter is that you are still losing money.  But, if you buy a Toyota, you simply lose less. It’s kind of a bizarre thing.  It’s like you’ll be better off if you buy a Toyota.  But the real fact of the matter is that you’ll be financially best off if you don’t buy a car at all.  But the notion that saving is good is so deep in American culture, I think because the notion of consumption is even more deeply ingrained.  In fact, saving is predicated on consumption.  Buying a Toyota is good only bec… [more]


  • being nice to service people

    Posted on: October 4th, 2011 at 6:44PM

                 I just got my car out of the shop and my friend made a remark that’s got me thinking.  She picked me up after I dropped my car off and she watched the mechanic explain to me what work he was going to do.  When we got in her car she remarked that he was extremely nice to me.  I thought, “well, duh, he’s a really nice guy.”  But she pointed out that she has always seen this happen with me.  When I interact with service people, according to her, they are always far nicer to me that she ever experiences.  I was really surprised because she is so conscientious with everyone.  But she said she’s always noticed it with me.  My mechanic, for example, was explaining all the things they w… [more]