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My data is almost out, be back after the first. Take care everyone!

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Member Since Nov 18, 2013
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I Want To Write Poetry From The Soul

Why do I stay? I've been asked that In so many ways. The answer isn't simple Even though I've tried. It's a question I've asked myself time after time. I've tried... [more]
  • I Was Molested As Child

    My uncle molested me from the time I was 10 until I was 14. Every family gathering, every holiday. As soon as people's eyes were turned, even if they were still in the room, he'd be all over me, touch… [more]
  • I Am a Victim of Domestic Violence

    When you've been a victim of domestic violence your whole world turns upside down. There is nothing more condradictory than the man who professes to love you harming you physically and emtionally. As … [more]
  • I Have Ptsd, Depression and Anxiety

    I Think I Do.... I am so jumpy. Loud noises ( especially men's voices) set me on edge. I read up on the symptoms and I have some but not all of them. I am uninsured and can't really get help at the moment. I am still … [more]
  • I Drink Too Much

    Week 1: So far I've kept to my lent promise. We had one beer left on ash Wednesday and I used it in my hair, to get rid of the temptation. I already feel a little better, less bloated and stupid feeli… [more]
  • Embarrassing Confessions

    I want to apologize to the ep community
    Please rate up if accept my apology. I'm sorry for polluting the Q&A section with my anger yesterday. I thought I had made a new friend on here and I apparently didn't. I had confided in this person and thought they might gave actually cared. Truth is, my feelings were hurt. I don't have many friends in real life and my life is kinda crap sometimes. I've come to really value the connections I've made on here. The majority of you have been so great and really lifted my spirits. I love you all. Forgive me for my tirade...please. … [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    I love playing with fire
    I like to watch the flames burn passionately. To start with a little twig and then move onto the big wood. I like bending down and feeling its heat on my face. The flames dancing with eachother. I love to stare and admire its beauty. And just when you think it's dying down I like to stoop down beside it part my lips and blow, rekindling the flames. The heat flushing my face and warming my body. I'm enticed by it...and hoping not to get burned. … [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    Domestic Violence has made me a liar
    I feel like I live a lie. I lie when I say I'm happy. I lie when I say things are fine.  I lie when I tell him I love him, hell I'm not sure if I can love anymore. I've lied about the fights, the bruises. I've lied about the yelling, all the things in our house that have been broken. About the holes in the wall. Everytime I muster up a big smile for my customers and say I'm good when they ask how I am, is a lie. I've lied so many times to cover for him, but mostly I've lied to myself.… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I May Never Know the Joy of Being a Mom
    I've always planned on having kids. My husband and I have talked about from day one. Later on into the relationship he became abusive. I cannot allow my children to be raised by an abusive parent...it would be selfish of me to get pregnant right now.And I know if I have kids with this man I will be tied to him forever. I love the jerk and am indecisive about leaving. My indecision is wasting my youth. I'm afraid I will just stay in limbo until its too late. I've slowly watched my dreams of a happy family disintegrate. To the point I've about given up. Maybe one day I can adopt...but I want to know the joy of having my own. It saddens me to look back on all the dreams I had as a younger perso… [more]