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chrysalid - 18-21 years old - female chrysalid - 18-21 years old - female

chrysalid 18-21, F

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I Live In a Fantasy World

Adjusting To Reality Posted 04/25/2013
I'm 19 and have been living in a fantasy world to varying extents for the first 18 years in my life. It was much more extreme between the ages of 3-10. I thought I was psychic and I was constantly... [more]
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    Secretly wishing I was ill
    Deep down I want to experience depressive and psychotic symptoms but logically I know I shouldn't want that. It's how I feel and as shameful as it is, as much as I know how stupid it is, I still can't change the fact that I feel it.It made my stay in General B adult mental health very awkward because I was surrounded by people that made me envious. I envied Andrea because she was severely depressed. I envied Samantha because she had psychotic symptoms.I wanted the worst for myself so I attempted suicide. That's how I got there. I wasn't depressed because there was no biological/neurological condition causing my feelings. I wanted to be miserable so I conditioned myself to be miserable. I did… [more]

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