Female , 46-50

Short, Fat & Sassy!

Last Seen Jan 20, 2010
Member Since Dec 28, 2009
Favorite Quote
Horoscope Scorpio
Special day
Books Anne Rice
Music Stevie Nicks, Mazzy Star, Norah Jones
Movies My Fair Lady
Local Time May 23rd, 8:47 AM

I Write Poetry

Alone You laying beside me, Our bodies skin on skin.The warmth of you fills my heart.I reach out and caress you, you moan softly in the dark. I whisper..."I Love You", my... [more]
  • I Love A Man Who Loves Another But Leads Me On

    I Feel He's My Soulmate Where to begin????  I love a man who has asked me to marry him, has cheated on me, has shown me a world of romance and loves another too.  He says in his perfect world he would have … [more]
  • I Want to Meet Someone I Can Trust and Respect

    Can't Find It Anywhere I thought I had trust and respect for myself and my partner.  Then the truth came out and I found he did not respect me and I could not trust him....End of story.  Now my dating and relat… [more]
  • I Want To Marry A Hopeless Romantic

    My Knight In Shining Armour Still seeking that man who will sweep me off my feet and carry me away to our castle in the clouds.  Still hoping there are those few who enjoy kissing, holding hands and looking into each oth… [more]
  • I Am Still Seeking Myself

    I Keep Believing! Everyday I tell myself that today is the day I will know who I am.  It never seems to come and there is always constant change and not much stability.  What is stable?  Maybe I am me… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I Am Sooooo Scared!!!
    I am at a crossroad in my life. Unemployed, in love and a limited number of options face me right now. I am totally in love with a man that I feel is my soulmate. We have had a relationship history that is rather unusual but it seems we always come back together in some manner. He is unsure of how he feels about me, or us, but he wants to "explore" our possibilities. We are good friends and plan on staying that way no matter what. He and I are discussing the possibility of going into a photography business so that we can build a career....a life long venture. We both are looking for something we can do so that we are never in an unemployment situation or depending on something else to… [more]
  • Think, think, think

    Posted on: January 7th, 2010 at 10:36AM

    As I watch the snow blow around outside my window I think about how quickly the weather can change. Then I think...can emotions change as quickly? I think about the one I love and how my feelings have not change in many years. I think about pain I have felt and tears I have cried. I think about wonderful experiences I have had and about the ones I still want to have. One day he loves me, the next he is unsure. How can things change in a day, an hour....a minute? I think about the way he holds me in his sleep and the way he can touch me with his smile. I think about the things I want to give heart, my soul. He already owns them but does not care or tend for them as he has p… [more]


  • Today, not much better

    Posted on: December 29th, 2009 at 11:20PM

    Job hunting was awful today. Wish I could find a way to make a living with my music. Trying to be "just friends" with the man I love. Not going too well. I can't get over the jealousy of him beign with another woman but I know he doesn't really want me. I just don't want to be completely alone. I sit waiting for him again. Supposed to be here at 10pm now it's after 11pm. Have been wating all day for some conversation. Hoping this experience project will give me some healing and friends. Thanks for all the comments. My mood: extremely drained… [more]


  • One Sided Love

    Posted on: January 7th, 2010 at 8:11PM

    He loves me, he loves me not. Spent the day wondering how long I could/should let this relationship go on. Every minute I spend with him, I love him more. Every minute I spend with him, I feel that he does not want me in that way. I am his friend/companion. I fill a need in his life but not the one that I want to fill. I am the now not the future. I suppose I feel I can change his mind, the more time I spend with him. I feel though he justs takes me more for granted. We used to hold hands, smile at each other and he made me feel special. Now I feel he is holding back any of that tenderness lest I think more of us than he does. When I ask..."Do you want to spend the evening togethe… [more]


  • Tomorrow is another day!

    Posted on: December 28th, 2009 at 8:18PM

    Today I cried until I felt my heart would explode from my chest. Today I woke and rose to meet the day even though I did not want to. Tonight I am numb and my vision is blurred. Tomorrow is another day and hopefully not filled with so much sorrow!My mood: extremely drained… [more]