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I Secretly Hope That One Day I Will Marry My First Love

My First Love Doesn't Realize How Much I Love Him Me and my boyfriend seem to be having some problems. Our anniversary is in two weeks, on January 7. He is sort of the first guy that I KNOW I love, the only one so far that I don't just automatically... [more]
ConnieWhoHurts has shared 28 Mature Experiences
  • I Think I Am Ugly

    My Insecurity In Which Dishearts Me... When I was younger..._age 1-7_...I went through a lot more than all the other kids at my school...and if they DiD go through what I went through, then they hid it quite well. Anyway, everything hurt m… [more]
  • I Self Harm

    It Started So Long Ago I started experimenting with cutting in 5th grade. It wasn't really serious until 7th grade. Now I am fourteen. I regularly burn, cut, scratch, pierce, stab, etc. It's not wrong. It's not weird. It's … [more]
  • I Thought Of You Today

    My Long Lonely Nights... I lay here awake. I wish I was prettier. I wish I were thinner. I say I am okay. Then I lye here and pray for God to take away the pain. Then I remember you. The way you appreciate me, appreciate my b… [more]
  • Offtopic Confessions

    I Just Cant
    I just can't take living in this world. What is wrong with all of these people....saying all of these things, helping people to want themselves to die? I can't seem to control the tears anymore. I thought I had it all worked out but then I go and screw it all up all over again. People who I lost and finally just got over want to come back into my life. Is it so wrong that I want to be happy. Why can't you leave me alone. Let me live my life with my boyfriend and love him until his love for me ends. Then maybe I will worry again. Let me live my life with my best friend who knows all of my secrets and still loves me, as she will until one day maybe one of us will die, or move away. Then possib… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    When The Truth Comes Out
    I have an amazing best friend, who I  normal ways. AND in ways that I...Probably shouldn't. BECAUSE I also have an amazing boyfriend. and my bestie have kissed quite a few times...which kinda makes me feel bad, because usually all I can think about is my almost perfect boyfriend, but at moments like this, when I wish I could hold her... I feel so guilty that I just want to punch myself in the face. :(… [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    The Inside Of Me
    I sit there with all my friends. We are the one's most preps will not hang out with. But I am friends with every type of people. I love everyone. But some people refuse to see that. Some wont even try to see my heart. They look at my scars, turn and whisper to their friends "Freak", as if I can not hear them. They think I am like my friends. They don't know how much I can bench. They don't know how fast I can run. They turn skeptic when I tell them I used to be a quarterback. And so I keep the fact that I was a cheerleader for six years...a secret. I wonder if they would believe that I used to love playing basketball, tennis, soccer, kickball, softball, baseball, and especially volleyball...… [more]