CulinaryChick 18-21, F

Okay for those of you who don't know what Trich (Trichotillomania or TTM) is, its complusive hair pulling. Ive been doing this for about 8 years. I was in remission once. FInally got my hair back to being long again. NOw I've relapsed and it's gotten worse and I don't know what to do.  Yeah what i have has a name so like they say if it has a name there is a treatment. But what if i really don't know why I do it. It's not anxiety or at least i dont think it is. I need help. Is there anyone else that has this or had it? Please I want help but I don't know how to go about it. Yeah i've doen the thearpy and the meds but the meds didn't help much. It's kinda embarrassing going having this.… [more]

Okay so my roommate who i love to death like i do all of my roommates doesn't seem like herself. Not only is she kind of going from guy to guy she also didnt come home last night. She's never done this before and none of us know where she is. She won't tell us or tell us who she is with. which worries me a lot. She used to be really fun to hang out with now she seems like she is pushing me away which actually hurts.since she was willing to call our other roommate and not me whose been calling her and texting her like crazy to see where she was at. I donlt know it just kinda hurts because she was my first friend that I met my first semester here two years ago. Now it's like she wont talk to m… [more]

My biggest flaw is that i care way too much. It has gotten me into some of the deepest hole that still i'm having a lot of trouble getting out of. But it does come in handy. It helps me to never back down to some who i care about so much. No matter their actions. But it will also be the death of me. Because once i lose my grasp on somthing everything starts falling. Sometimes it's to the point where my heart drops and all the sudden I'm alone in a place where I don't know. It's so cloudy there and i'm all alone. Being in that place terrifies me. Because i will be reduced to tears within an instant the second I hit that place. Then I start to lose it because there is no one around and i'm so … [more]

When something is wrong I push to know why. Because I want to fix it to make them feel better. But now I should know better becasue well i make it worse i destroy them more without meaning to.  I'm terrible person. I try so hard to be the best person I can and i end up hurting others instead of helping. Now i know why I don't have friends. I know now why they left. I try fix everything and it ends up crashing down in flames. What's the point anymore. I do nothing but make things worse. Well there you have it my worst nightmare. I am my own worst enemy. Now you know the true me. Don't do what I do. If you want to be happy Don't be me....… [more]