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Male , 36-40
Feeling lonely
too much of nothing ... and even more with out anyone.

Human! HA! .. just ask ..

Last Seen 22 hrs ago
Member Since Jul 23, 2008
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  • 100% Australian
  • and a little English
  • and a little Irish
  • and a little Irish (Northern)
  • and a little Welsh
  • and a little German
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Politics Liberal
Horoscope Pisces
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Books History, Sci-Fi/Fantasy, DC Comics
Music Everything from Gregorian Chants to Metallica
Movies Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, Superman, Batman, Star Trek
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I Am Lonely

When Does It Stop? When does it stop? The loneliness. The coldness, inside and out. The pain when you see a couple holding hands, or sharing a kiss. The hurt when you see one give THAT look to the other... [more]
Cursedboy has shared 51 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Afraid I Will Never Find Someone to Really Love Me

    Nobody Wants Me My love is not good enough. Any girl I have had a crush on. Any girl that's I've liked. Anyone I've loved .. or even wanted to love .. has made that perfectly clear. Nobody wants me. Nobody wants t… [more]
  • I Have No Friends

    Monster Without Friends I've never had any friends. Not even an internet-friend. I'm ugly. Nobody wants to be friends with, let alone love, a monster. I don't even have anyone to ask to go out with, not even to a movie, o… [more]
  • I Was Bullied

    Bullying/Abuse I wish we'd stop calling it 'bullying', and call it what it really is. Abuse. I was bullied everyday, all day, for 11 years. I vomited each morning because I knew what was going to happen, and knew… [more]
  • I Think I Am Ugly

    I Am a Monster. I'm ugly. A monster. I get told so quite frequently. Often by people I don't even know. Someone will refuse to sit next to me on the bus, or stand near me in a que, because they don't want to be ne… [more]
  • Tears on Photos

    Posted on: August 14th, 2010 at 2:56AM

    There are times when I feel so left behind. I look on Facebook, and see people there that I went to school with. There they are, in photos with their partner, their husband or wife, or with their children. Even the 'loosers' from school are now married, or at least have children. And what have I done? I'm 34, and haven't had my first kiss yet. I haven't held hands with a woman. Haven't hugged, or cuddled. My last date was in 1996. I'm still a virgin. I'm 34 years old, and haven't even been in the same room as a naked woman. The only time I've seen a naked woman is in photos or video. I know some people .. well, really, most people .. would say to go and pay for it. Go to a brothel, a prost… [more]

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  • What is becoming of EP?

    Posted on: January 1st, 2011 at 8:04AM

    I don't usually do this. Messages between people are private, unless left on the whiteboard or other public areas. But this time, I just feel that I have to: sammylou4u Dec 30, 2010 3:29 PM sometimes in life you just got to accept that some people are born winners, like myself. and then some people are losers-for-life...like you. you'll never amount to anything and people will always look down on you. better get used to it geek How nice. Some people must have such patheticly small lives. Living with their head stuck firmly up their superfical arse. Aaaah well ...   … [more]

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  • Fridays ...

    Posted on: October 29th, 2010 at 8:37AM

    Friday. It's supposed to be a good day, right? When you look forward to the weekend. Spend time with friends, or family. Or both. Go off to parties, or a dinner out. Spend the day at the beach, or in a park. Or just stay and laze around home, spending time with that special someone in your life. Fridays are supposed to be good ... Yet, if I go out, I have to go alone. A walk along a beach. Alone. To the shops, and look at things I might like. And sometimes, buy them. But alone. Sit and read a book. Alone. Try to find something to take photos of. Alone. Go out to dinner, and sit there .. alone .. Keep trying. But when your there alone .. and always alone .. there doesn't seem to be a whol… [more]

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  • An Option

    Posted on: December 13th, 2010 at 9:13AM

    What I really want, is to feel loved. That just for once, somebody would be afraid of losing me. Like I'm a priority, not just an option that's never chosen. I just wish someone would really care enough to stay in my life, and not walk out ... … [more]

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