CyanideCola 18-21, F

I want to kill myself. The people I've told in my life want to 'help' me. But the truth is I just want to find some other people who think that the decision to kill myself should be mine. I just want someone to understand that I just really want to die. My partner has told me that the reason I haven't killed myself is because I actually think life is worth living, but the truth is I keep living because I'm too scared to survive my suicide attempt. I want to get dead, I don't want to walk away from a suicide attempt. I want some people who are like minded and I want to talk to them. But I can't seem to find anyone. And I feel more alone now then ever. I used to hope and dream that someday I w… [more]