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Female , 22-25

I'm a hopeful Girly Girl, but still have a bit of a tom boy in me. I dream to be a Harajuku Oshare Girl. I love to dress in different style trends because I don't label myself and wear one style of clothing. I'm into all styles and wearing one style can get boring for me. I am indeed a Trekie (Star Trek fan). I am an anime freak. I am a video game junkie. I loveeee the Resident Evil Series and a big fan of Shigeru Miyamoto's games.

Last Seen Oct 4, 2012
Member Since Feb 12, 2010
Favorite Quote All good things come to those who wait.
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Politics Moderate
Horoscope Leo
Special day 8-12
Books Take A Look in the Mirror, Amelia A. Rhodes, Daughters of the Moon, Vampire Diaries, Twilight Series, Manga's, Shojo's,
Music Idustrial, Techno, Trance, JPop, Japanese Music, Rock, Metal, Pop, Screamo
Movies Martial Arts, Romance, Action, Most Vampire and Martial Arts Movies, Star Trek
Local Time August 27th, 7:18 PM

I Am Afraid to Die

Nothingness For death, I fear the nothingness that could possibly happen to me. The fear of nonexisting. That black nothingness. No memory. Nothing! It eats at me. I'm religious, yet I have doubt of heaven. Even... [more]
D3zi has shared 9 Mature Experiences
  • I Want to Love Passionately and to Be Loved Passionately

    Leo=Passion An old poem of the passion I had for my ex. Enjoy! =) My sun once again pulled me out of that dark cloud that grew into a very hurtful storm. That beautiful warm sun that keeps me m… [more]
  • I Am Attracted to Nerdy Guys

    I Like Guys Who Are Like Or Can Relate To Me. A Nerd! There are many different versions of nerds and I have been many of them. I am a math geek, a video game nerd, a band geek, an art nerd, and a book worm. By choice I have only dated two guys in my… [more]
  • I Have Watched a Sunrise

    Morning Sunrise Many times I've watched the sun come up, and every time I do, I soak it in my pours and let it recharge my soul. Sometimes I wish I heard music every time the sun rises like in the movie City of A… [more]
  • I Watch You Sleep

    My Secret Affection When I can't sleep at night or I have a nightmare, I feel comforted by your soft breathing as you sleep. Your warmth radiating from your body is a warm blanket that makes me feel safe. I would ru… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I LOVE Attack Attack! and Jamie's Elsewhere!
    I can't stop listening to them!! I'm sooo into them! I want to see them in concert sooo bad! I've been getting into a lot of new music lately. It's refreshing ^^ I would spend $200 on music if I could. I'm dying for some new music!… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I hate when people yell or shout.
    Even if people are yelling/shouting at someone other than me I hate it. when people yell/shout it kinda scares me at first, then ****** me off. Is the situation so bad that you need to raise your voice? Even if the shouting is for one second I hate it. All I get from shouting is negative emotions (which is what shouting is supposed to do), but it affects me even if the shouting is not meant for me. I hate it!… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    My On-going Nightmare
    Ever since my ex broke off a 5 year relationship 8 months ago, I have been having these nightmares about him almost every night. Out break up was a horrific one so I guess there is some lingering trauma in my mind. 8 months of these dreams about him, whether he is hurting me in every way possible or loving me the way he used to, Its tearing me apart. How can I truly get over him if I keep waking up in tears. I WANT TO MOVE ON! Lately my nightmares have been cut down to every once in a while because I thought I was making progress, but last night was a wake up call. With these nightmares, it makes me have doubts about how I feel about my ex, but then I remember the truth and I go back to n… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I Have Premonition Dreams! And Today Came True!
    I sometimes dream about the future (mostly the next two days) and though the dreams I have are not mind blowing when it comes to what is going to happen the very next day, I find it a blessing and a curse. Whether I dream something small like making coffee today even though I never make coffee (my mom does), something specific like out of ALL my bracelets I wear (I'm a raver so I wear a lot of candy) I dream of which one exactly will break the next day and it does, or something horrific like dreaming that my ex and I broke up suddenly after a 9 year relationship (which did happen the next day T_T). Mainly my premonition dreams give only premonitions about me and my life. So my dreams aren… [more]
  • Lost in a Dazed Fog

    Posted on: February 1st, 2011 at 3:51PM

    When I don't dream so well, my day is affected, so now I feel like I'm in a fog (dazed, confused, depressed). Forgetting to bring m homework to school, missed breakfast because there is nothing to eat, not knowing what I should be doing while I'm at school early, I'm just sitting here blank faced and hungry. Having to sleep on the floor of a friends apartment for a month until I find a new home is depressing. All my precious belongings stuck in boxes like a prison. I feel like my belongings; imprisoned. I clean my friends apartment to feel some sense of acomplishment, only to have the things I clean dirtied in an instant by college boys; my acomplishment lost. I feel like such a failure. My … [more]

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  • Another Fight

    Posted on: October 8th, 2010 at 10:43PM

    Sitting on the bus I can't stop the flow of the tears in my eyes. For an hour I almost convinced myself to turn back, but what does that say about myself? That I'm a coward? That he won't forgive me? How could I turn back? I was scared. The one person who said would never hurt me did. I felt cornered; trapped with no one to go to for comfort. So I fled. There was no anger, just utter sadness. Sitting at home that once felt safe, now feels foreign. I'm scared. Panic ensues. All that's running through my head is how much I miss him; how much I need to be near him again. Am I so pathetic that I cannot go one day without him in my arms? But the thought of how much he scared me still… [more]

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  • Inspiration at a Loss

    Posted on: February 23rd, 2012 at 9:34PM

    Even though I work, go to school, have a place of my own, inspiration comes rarely now a days. I love the few people in my life, but they are also at a loss in inspiration to continue thier aspirations of self gratitude. It's as if there is a major piece missing in our lives and we all know who that particular person is, yet there is nothing we can do to get him to come visit us. Either life is too busy or there is self regret in him to return to us. I can only express the longing I have for him and watch my friends miss him more. It feels like a family and I can't keep them together alone. So I keep going in this mindless circle to keep my sanity in tact cause I don't have the heart to let … [more]

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  • Leo the Lonely Lioness.

    Posted on: May 20th, 2010 at 1:30AM

    The Lioness is burning in me wanting to explode! A lioness needs companionship. Lost in the desert burning with her blazing body. It sweats with passion. The fire inside is burning its way to you. Every pulsating beat of my heart egnights my soul. Serenity. My flaming kiss; intoxicating. Waiting for you as I roar to the rising sun!… [more]

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