DailyDiagnosis 18-21, M

Right before I turned 19 I drank 13-20 beers a day, my Mom and step dad are alcoholics and always have a 30 pack. They don't know if they drank a certain amount everyday, so it was very easy to get away with. Plus if they did not have any for some strange reason, I had older friends that bought beer for me. I drank the 13-20 beers everyday for 8 months, the reason I put an end to my alcoholism is that I had stopped eating for almost 5 days, and one night I started throwing up blood and it scared me. I didn't realize I was hurting myself, I never wanted the physical pain, and it came along because of my foolish way out of reality. I stopped drinking for a while and now I do it socially at par… [more]

I preach of always being honest to every person I meet, but it's not entirely true. The thing is, I lost almost all of my friends in my last year of high school, I was depressed and came to all of them way too much, to the point they told me not to come around unless I was happy. When happiness showed up again, we all became buddies, I know I shouldn't keep people around that don't care, but that didn't matter much when I was happy. After a while, depression came back around, and it's been here for probably a month now, but I'm afraid to turn to my friends for help, so I anonymously post on sites like this. I can't trust people I know face to face, so I lie to everyone, a big lie at that. If… [more]