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It's been an emotional rollercoaster, my life.

In dilemma, as always.

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I Have a Confession

...not because I don't love him, but because I love him too much it hurts already. And I sometimes feel taken for granted. He's the kindest person I know and his patience is really amazing but that's... [more]
drizzlenna has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Am a Web Designer

    I Am Not A Web Designer... ...but I'm in-love with one. And he's really good at what he does. … [more]
  • I Just Want To Be With Him Forever

    Forever, Happy With Him. I was in a 7-year relationship when I met NJ. He came unexpected, said "hi" online. I didn't know we'd go really far, but eventually I fell for him. Everything was magical. Even though I wasn't free a… [more]
  • I Have a Confession

    Reading sweet, old e-mails from NJ made me even depressed. Now I only wish for those days to come back. :(… [more]
  • I Have a Confession

    The problem with me is that most of the time, I can't decide on what to do, or what I want. This vicious cycle will just go on until such time that I learn to choose; until then, everyone I know will … [more]
  • Love Letter #2

    Posted on: May 26th, 2011 at 10:43PM

    Dear NJ, I love you. And since you have always meant the world to me, I think it's really time for me to give your world back to you. You've always taught me how to be strong and to pray when I don't know what to do. Honestly, now I don't know what to do with myself without the usual strength I got from you then. I know you want me to be carry on no matter how rough the road may be. So anyway, I prayed to God just a while ago. I  asked him to give me strength --  to finally have the courage to let go of you and accept that things aren't going back to how they used to be anymore. I prayed for you, as always, to find happiness in your life and one day, meet the one meant for you. I thanked Him… [more]

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  • Love Letter #5

    Posted on: June 9th, 2011 at 4:19AM

    Dear NJ.I know I love you.But I can't deny --  there are a lot of things about you that I don't think I can live with now. Is that because you're not in-love with me anymore? How petty.Just now, I realized how sad my situation is. I just saw how apathetic you were -- no, it's not that you didn't care. You were actually furious cause I accidentally threw at you the cockroach which unfortunately dropped at my shoulder. I swear to God I didn't mean for it to land on your thigh. I was just shocked so I automatically flipped my hand, I was facing you --  so obviously, that pest flew to you. I'm really sorry nonetheless. I just don't know why and can't believe myself that I needed to explain to yo… [more]

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  • Love Letter #6

    Posted on: June 14th, 2011 at 4:13AM

    Dear NJ,I'm confused if I still love you.Or maybe it's just my in-denial self who's talking, but whatever -- I beleve love s a wonderful feeling, and it's sweet, fun, unconditional -- almost PERFECT. So please, try not to ruin that.If it's just my in-denial self that's typing here I wish to tell you, just this once that I think I'm starting to not love you (what's the word for that?). I think feeling different will be good for me. I don't like how insensitive you are sometimes, yet still be the kindest in my eyes. And I hate how much you hurt me, yet I still see you perfectly angelic. I must be crazy. I hate this.So yea, maybe I was wrong. Maybe I still love you, but please, try not too push… [more]

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  • Love Letter #11

    Posted on: January 13th, 2014 at 12:28AM

    Dear NJ,I still love you more than anything after everything......that's why it hurts. This year's start didn't go so well for us. There are times when I still feel that it is not me that you TRULY want. Maybe I'm just overthinking or misinterpreting you... so I think maybe it is always the best time for you to speak up, to woo me again with words I've longed to hear.I somehow feel there's a big part of us that's disconnected and I'm afraid 'cause I don't want a day to come when I don't feel anything for you anymore. As you may know, I am very capable of "un-loving" a person but still staying with him/her for the sake of companionship. I don't ever want to go back there again, I don't want a… [more]

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