Female , 46-50
Feeling angry
Life Sucks at time like these!

generous of spirit giving of honesty in my ccomments and will remove you from my friends if you are disrespetful. I know everyone is not on the same journey as me but it is nice to share the path.

Last Seen Apr 25, 2014
Member Since Apr 05, 2012
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  • 100% Irish (Northern)
Vices hard liquior chips sweets
Politics Liberal
Horoscope Virgo
Special day 8-28
Books All The
Music old rock like Bon Jovie, AC/DC Pop Michael Jackson Elton John, and Country Kenny Rodgers, Lady Antebellum
Local Time April 28th, 12:59 PM

I Felt Alone On My Birthday

Birthday Blues Growing up in the family that adopted me it was lets trot out the unwanted unloved girl and show everyone how wonderful we are... or they forgot. being married didn't change that... it... [more]
elderwitch47 has shared 6 Mature Experiences
  • I Have Multiple Personality Disorder

    I Am Amazed Whenever i think of what soul shattering abuse it took to totally spilt a personality I am amazed by the sweet loving alters I have met in this group... even though we have survived hell and back we a… [more]
  • I Have A Spouse That Has Dissociative Identity Disorder

    My Husbands Alter Doesn't Want A Wife hello new here and didn't know where else to hubby and I have been together for over 12yrs...and have worked hard to build our lives together in that time...he has accepted my two girls from… [more]
  • I Have Really Bad Nightmares

    Nightmares Haunt My Sleep Just last night or maybe I should say early this morning I kicked my foot into the wall while in middle of yet another dream terror of the past... seems I was kicking some fat bad smelling client off … [more]
  • I Remember My First Kiss

    "see Ya" Most girls back when I was in school the 70's had boyfriends or two and certainly had kissed a boy...not so with me...I wasn't much to look at...not built like a cheerleader...or had the clothes of th… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I deleted my stories
     I just spent most of the morning deleting some my stories from EP.  It took a lot for me to post them.  I guess I was using the site kinda like a surrogate therapy get them out of my head so the night mares wouldn't be so bad. It is just I forgot that not only can my friends those I know see what I wrote but strangers can too.  I have already been bashed and bullied in comments and most recently in messages by in mail so I have chosen to be selective in postings from now on and not give to many specifics just the general idea... so for all of you who have commented respectfully I thank you and for all of you who didn't lesson learned.… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    Try to understand
    Last Saturday I was found unconscious and unrsponsive by my husband on the floor of the bathroom and he called 911. Emt's came tried to revive me didn't help had shallow breathing in ambulance and they bagged me..tried to put in breathing tube but bit EMt..Poor kid... at hospital did all kinds of tests and did put in breathing tube... I woke up on Neuro ICU with tube down my throat and nurse telling me to breathe...while rubbing my chest... got tube out sounded like "Barry White" which wouldn't so bad but I am 5'2" and a woman... moved to Trauma ICU cause no bed in regualr room...then docs ran more test...alll the while even though paralyzied on right side kept telling them what it w… [more]
  • Embarrassing Confessions

    I feel safest when....
    I am in a closet surrounded by walls on on sides so no one can startle me..with soft blankets to snuggle in the lap of an overstuffed teddy or doggie so that only love can touch me... I would spend so many nights like this knowing that they would protect me in my dreams... I still want that security and space even though now I am bigger and getting into a closet is something of a major problem.… [more]
  • finding a way

    Posted on: December 27th, 2012 at 6:07AM

    been searching to find my way again.... been lost for awhile now and not sure weather i should try to climb yet another mountain or just run down into the chasm and see where i many changes ....can't hardly keep up....but finally found a steady foothold and am transgressing the terrain alone and feeling stronger each day.  Sure the storms still wash over me but afterwards i feel cleaner, freer and more clear.  I am gonna like desending the mountain instead of hiking up to the peak....the path will be slower and the scenery just as breathtaking if not more cause now it can be enjoyed.The above is just a random thought i had during a meditation....i usually walk up in them but in th… [more]