elenaki 18-21, F

I wouldn't say he broke me, but maybe he broke me for everyone else.… [more]

I love you and that's why I have to stay away from you.I've rejected you twice now. Didn't think I could do it. I need to stop toying with you. Need to stop making you want me. It's reassuring, sure, but does it do either of us any good? Doubtful. I feel like finding a psychologist you know, to tell me what's wrong with me. Of course, I know what's wrong with me. I'm in love with you. And we can't be together. Yesterday it was high school, today it's college, tomorrow it'll be something else. Sure, we'll meet one day -that's all i believe in nowadays. But until then... I need to try and get over you, and you need to let me. And I need to do the same for you. No matter how much I want you for… [more]

Internet relationship, different countries, completely seperate lives, love, heartache, blah blah blah.The thing is, I love this guy. And it's not  a temporary thing either. I've been in love with him since April 2011. We had a year long break, then we started talking again, and now we're on a break again. And it sucks because I don't know how to live withought a thought of him crossing my mind. I have to, for my sake, move on. At least until the time comes for us to meet, I need to be able to hold another relationship. Any relationship. The chances of us being together, I wouldn't say they're small, they're just unpredictable. Neither of us live a planned, stable life. We take things as the… [more]