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I'm feeling so tired suddenly... I tried harder than I ever did but still did badly... I know I was still not as hardworking as many others... But I tried so hard and yet failed...I was anxious the whole holiday... I tried to enjoy myself... I tried to let go and be happy... I pretended and kept on calming myself down... I felt so bad to my parents who supported me mentally and financially... I felt so useless... I am frustrated... I talked back... I lose my cool so easily nowadays... I am not the bright,cheerful girl I was just two years ago... I missed my old self...I'm embarrassed that I couldn't achieve what my high school friends achieved... Please tell me how to deal with this problem.… [more]

I'm taking a course with the subjects I'm weak in now in college. It was my parents' wish and I kinda got forced into this. I tried running away few months back when I couldn't cope at all by giving up on studies,skipping classes often. Then one day I own up to my parents. I tried persuading them into letting me change to what I want to do. I lost,but they let me restart the semester all over again. After I come to college,I start to lose my self confidence. I had very little idea on what was being taught,so I kept quiet and tried to look like the rest of my classmates,trying to seem that I understand. But I know myself,i know my problems. Now I start to surrender into telling myself,I'm … [more]

I don't like incoming calls these days... I'm sort of traumatized by them... I put my cell phone on silent mode all the while nowadays as I got shocked by the ringing. None of my friends call,not much at least,they text more often. So the calls are mainly from my mom. But each time she called,I'll feel annoyed and even lonelier...(I'm currently staying alone in the house my dad bought near my school for me and initially also my bro to stay,but now my bro is not around). My mom would talk in accusing tone like I had done something wrong,or angry tone... If she wants to ask whether I'm fine or doing coping well in my studies,why can't she say it in a more soothing,loving way. I feel sadder … [more]

I'm so stressed now... I'm in my college years and staying far from home. I'm not being homesick,but being stressed of school... I've skipped three days of school without my parents knowing. I dread going to school... It's becoming a stress and tension to me... I'm not being lazy...but I'm stressed as the course is not of my choice,it's a total opposite in fact... My parents want me to take that up so I can take over my dad's business later on... I'm not the eldest of my siblings,nor I'm a boy which some cultures hand down family business or whatever to the male offsprings. My classmates are competetive and eager as they have the interest in it. And they are close to each other as they hav… [more]