Female , 31-35

I am many things, including single, almost thirty, a mother, an artist, and a friend. Most of all, I'm just me. :D

Last Seen May 19
Member Since Dec 04, 2007
Favorite Quote There is nothing as strong as tenderness, and nothing as tender as true strength.
  • a little English
  • and a little Irish
  • and a little Dutch
  • and a little German
  • and a little Native American (Cherokee)
  • and a little Native American
Vices French fries, bi guys, kids, puppies, kittens, babies, clove cigarettes, dill pickles, green olives, black olives, pet rats, TEH INTARWEB...
Politics Anarchist
Horoscope Taurus
Special day 4-21
Books Anything by Dean Koontz, Stephen King, Margaret Weis, Tracy Hickman, J. R. R. Tolkein, Cornelia Funke... The Beekeeper's Apprentice, The Secret Life of Bees... The list goes on and on and on.
Music Anything I can sing to. (Evanescence, Billy Joel, Led Zeppelin, Randy Travis... The list is odd and eclectic, at best.)
Movies The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, And The Wardrobe... Prince Caspian, Powder, The Land Before Time, The Neverending Story, The Wiz, The Labyrinth, anything with Jackie Chan or Jet Li...
Local Time October 31st, 9:31 AM

I Am Sick of Hearing About What I "Should Have" Done

Grah, Dad. Oh, man. He's the worst at this. Especially if I've failed at something. I should have always done everything his way. Period. Because his way works. And my way doesn't. And if I don't fail, its... [more]
Elwing has shared 34 Mature Experiences
  • I Have Epileptic Seizures

    Cushing's Syndrome and Seizures. Cushing's Syndrome (also called hypercortisolism or hyperadrenocorticism) is an endocrine disorder caused by high levels of cortisol in the blood from a variety of causes, including a pitui… [more]
  • I Had a Pilonidal Cyst

    April, 2006 At the time... I worked for the local humane society. I worked my *** off, scrubbing kennels, cleaning poop from various places, walking dogs, feeding animals... That sort of thing. Well, when the … [more]
  • I Have Cushing's Disease

    *sigh* Cushing's Syndrome (also called hypercortisolism or hyperadrenocorticism) is an endocrine disorder caused by high levels of cortisol in the blood from a variety of causes, including a pituit… [more]
  • I Have a Violet Aura

    Violet With a Red Overlay... Violets are the inspirational visionaries, leaders and teachers who are here to help save the planet. Most Violets feel drawn to educate the masses, to inspire higher ideals, to improve the quality… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    I think I hate bactrim. 0...
    I think I hate bactrim. 0.0 I KNOW this is a baaaad thing to do, (in part because I didn't finish all the pills the first time) but the last few days I've had a sore throat... Nothing I've done has made it go away and I don't have the $ to head to the doc right now, so I've been trying to fight it at home. Anyway, I had like three bactrim pills left over from when I had a UTI a month ago or something? I can't even remember when. Anyway, less than a couple hours after I took ONE bactrim pill, all of a sudden my whole body started itching like CRAZY. Even the bottoms of my feet! Rushed myself into a hot bath, and at least now I don't itch quite so bad, but... Now I've got this horrid heartburn… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    My high school English te...
    My high school English teacher once explained that the word 'hate' means, to him, that you dislike someone so much that you want them to die and go to hell. Hell is a terrible place, or so I've heard. Keeping that definition in mind... Sometimes I truly, deeply hate my ex, as much as I don't want to admit it. He's not a horrible, terrible person. He doesn't deserve to spend forever and ever in eternal, burning torment. But sometimes I hate him. Not because of who he is. But because of what he's done to me. I can't help but blame him for a lot of the crap I've been through the last few years... I dropped out of college to be with him. I gave up my two precious puppies, Sparky and Bruno, s… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I think EP is going downh...
    I think EP is going downhill... I'm scared. This place used to be so wonderful. People were open and honest, and caring. A person could say things like, "I'm against abortion because..." And not get flamed for it. And even if there WERE a few people wanting to start something, there'd always be more than enough people to stick up for the ones who were wronged, and help cease the drama. Now, it seems, there's not enough good people here to stop the drama. People can now not only get flamed and/or outright accosted because of their WORDS, but THEIR NAME can cause a huge backlash. Sure, some names are inappropriate, but flag 'em and let EP handle it. I confess, that I post less here than I us… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    It was ME, okay? Not the ...
    It was ME, okay? Not the cat! I was the one who caused that horrid smell! Yes! I did it! I farted. 0.0 I've got *really* bad gas tonight.… [more]
  • Is it really over?

    Posted on: March 9th, 2009 at 10:46PM

    I don't know what to do. I think its over. Skunktails and I, that is. I haven't cried. I want to. But I can't. I don't want kiddo to realize there's something horribly wrong. I don't want ME to realize there's something horribly wrong. I don't want to give myself the chance to freak out. Leaving Skunkie means I've gotta find a place of my own; I've gotta learn how to take care of myself, after over two years of being taken care of. I've got to be mommy and daddy. I've got to figure out what I'm going to tell my son, about why his 'step dad' isn't going to be there anymore. I want to say I hate Skunkie for this. I hate the fact that my son is loosing his daddy. What do I tell him? Where the … [more]


  • I actually feel good tonight...

    Posted on: August 18th, 2008 at 10:41PM

    Well, except for being bored. I'm really, really proud of myself. Guess what we had for supper tonight? Pork chops, stuffing, and corn... All absolutely, positively perfectly delicious and delectable... THEN! I made CAKE! Chocolate chipped yellow cake, with chopped wild rhubarb in it! Ooooh, I am the absolute coolest... OMFG... Yeah, so what if I used a cake mix in a box! I did a damned FINE job of cooking tonight's supper, thank you VERY ******* MUCH! My mood: extremely alive… [more]


  • Another damned FINE supper!

    Posted on: August 19th, 2008 at 9:33PM

    Despite it being made from leftovers! LOL... We had two leftover pork chops from last night... I cubed 'em, then put 'em in some cheesy broccoli rice, and added peas... Simple, cheap, but, oh so very good. :D Kiddo and I painted today! With what was left from his 'watercolors', from preschool last year. (You know, those cheap paints they give to kids, LOL?) But, at least it was fun, and I got a few new things added to my journal... They weren't exactly 'activities' in my journal, but I figured, what the hell. I'll add 'em anyway. :D And now kiddo and I are watching Pinocchio (Disney)... And I've got this acidic, bile, 'warm' feeling in the back of my throat and upper chest and it sucks, 'ca… [more]


  • Hehe. HELP! Hehe.

    Posted on: August 17th, 2008 at 8:58PM

    Guess what? I'm asking *YOU* all for a bit of help. I'm in a mood tonight. SO... I'm not asking much, really. :D I figured this would be neat, since EP is such a big part of my life right now. What I want you folks to do is find one thing each, that I can glue/tape/staple into my new journal. I'll label each one with the date I place it in the book, and the name of the sender. Yeah, yeah, I'm asking you to use snailmail! Message me/comment on this blog entry, if you wish to be a part of my little journey through my first 'real' journal. But, be creative. Chewed up paper, washed paper, newspaper/magazine articles... Leaves, twigs, unwieldy things... Even keys, beads, feathers. I can promise … [more]