Estrella12 18-21, F

I've seen titanic over a million times and I still cry! Every single time. I don't know if it's cuz it really happened. IT'S JUST SO SAD! I love it so much though. Tear tear:(… [more]

this past few days i have been looking at my body and i hate it!! i look so fat! my mom has been telling me that i look fat and to stop eating so much.. i look at the mirror and i feel disgusted. i hate it so much. i havent eaten anythin today and im so hungry but im not going to. my mom came home for lunch and she asked me to come eat and i said i wasnt hungry. she told me to come eat and that what was wrong with me! i mean she tells me that IM FAT and then she tries to force me TO EAT SOMETHING!!! ugh this is al her fault. no one has ever called me fat but her. this is her fault. i have cut myself and thought of commiting suicide because of all the **** she has put me through. i know now t… [more]

my best friend JUST called me to ask me if i wanted to go to the movies. we havent gone out in almost a month so i agreed. i have nothing against her. i love her shes like my sister really.... but what im worrying about is that her brother is coming with us. a little over a year ago me and her brother hooked up a couple of times. i havent seen him in liike two months i think. the last time i saw him we got into this big fight because (well he has a girlfriend of like 2 years:/) of his girlfriend... and she that hes coming. i don't want to go because i know part of me still likes him and if i see him then nothing is going to stop me from being with him again. knowing he had a girlfriend didn'… [more]

ob christmas day i was thinkin about my teacher. the one im in love with. hes not married and doesnt havent kids. so i was thinking about what he could be doin. christmas is a happy day. i was wondering if he was ok and having fun. i just wish i knew if he was happy… [more]