Female , 18-21

Well hullo there. I've been getting a lot of friend requests from randos, and it irks me. If you wanna be my friend, we have to have interacted before. That's how friendship works in the real world, and that's how she works here in my world, so get used to it.
I am an artist through and through. Painting, drawing, music, poetry, writing... It's all so amazing, but writing is my number one passion. So yes, I am sort of the geeky artist type :). I'm obsessed with music. Like I'm honestly contemplating getting headphones somehow implanted in my head. Is that possible? I'm spontaneous, because I'm easily bored. I absolutely despise liars, so don't lie to me. I don't judge people EVER, but I'm not going to give you a second glance if you're all about sex or dirty talk etc. I'm 16 years old :) I'm working on not holding onto my secrets so tightly, so I'll be perfectly honest here. This is me.

Last Seen Sep 14, 2014
Member Since Apr 17, 2011
Favorite Quote Wherever you go, go with all your heart
Vices perfectonism
Special day
Books The Hunger Games Series, Ellen Hopkins, The Host, Red Riding Hood, The Stand
Music it changes every day, cuz I like to rawk my sawks awf
Movies Hairspray, Finding Nemo, Sorority Row, 13 Going On 30, Easy A, Black Swan
Local Time June 30th, 11:09 AM

I Love Myself

Dear Me Dear me, dear me,what have you done?falling down,landing hard,hard,hard,on the concrete floor of depression,beating yourself up,with the bludgeons of... [more]
fadingvioletdawn has shared 4 Mature Experiences
  • I Want To Lay My Head On Your Chest And Listen To Your Heart

    Beautiful Heart Just to lay there, alone with you; neither of us feeling the need to talk, both of us completely comfortable with mutual silence. If I could lay my head down on your chest and feel it beating... To … [more]
  • I Wish I Could Make My Friends' Pain Go Away

    What's Your Is Mine When your heart is breaking, mine breaks. When tears are glistening on your cheeks, you know there's a few to match on mine. When you feel that the world is against you, remember that they… [more]
  • I Never Use An Umbrella When It Rains

    Feel It I love to feel the rain pouring down my back, pelting my head, soaking my clothes... It may sound weird, but it's really fun. Just letting go and embracing the rain like you used to when you were a … [more]
  • I Have a Secret Crush

    Waiting I have a secret crush, and I intend to keep her a secret for a while. But the instant there is any flicker of hope that maybe this isn't an unrequited love, I will sing it from the rooftops.… [more]
  • Diagnosis, The Rock, Help; Finally

    Posted on: February 29th, 2012 at 6:03PM

    Damn, today... was a day... I'm still trying to process what's going on... little sister is on her way to a hospital tomorrow.  And not a little hospital like we have here, like the one we were at today... a big hospital in the capital of the province... was just a regular follow up appointment for the two of us... ...she needed her coat, so I went in first.  All went well, they're running more tests, no big deal... ...then it was my little sister's turn... God she's so tiny now... where did she all go?  I shouldn't call her my little sister. She's taller than me. She went in... mum and doctor came out...  why are they taking so long?  They're talking... sister … [more]


  • The Big Secret

    Posted on: January 26th, 2012 at 9:21PM

    I keep scrolling over and over again through my groups, trying to fiond the right place to say all that needs to be said.  I just figured out that there's really not.  There's no one real place where everything I need to get out can be laid dawn at once.  Not even here, in a blog.But I'm finally going to let this out.  I was so close last time, a couple of weeks ago when I was at a really low point and I posted a couple of stories, and maybe worried a few of you...  Crappy of me to come that close and go through with the big confession, but it is what it is.Some of you on EP, even some in my very own circle, will be able to relate.  Of course you will; that's what this place is all about, is… [more]


  • fuckingfuck

    Posted on: February 23rd, 2012 at 7:25PM

    I'm sorry. **** I'm sorry. I'm sorry for only coming to EP when I'm in a foul mood, or when I'm otherwise in one of the lowest of the low of all pits of emotions. I'm sorry I'm not enough, too. ... ...I was doing so "well". I was actually recovering. But then... ...Do you know how long it took me to LOSE those pounds?? 15 of them, to be precise. 2 months. So why do they come back after only 2 weeks? Where is the fairness in ANY of that? No wonder I felt like a fat **** today. Sorry, FEEL**. God, she's disgusting. All skin and bones and ugly pallor. So why the **** do I want to best her? What is WRONG with me!?!?!? Like, I'm not asking in a "boo-hoo poor me what is wrong with me?" ki… [more]


  • Anyone Know What I'm Talking About?

    Posted on: July 16th, 2011 at 2:59PM

    Has anyone ever been hit in the chest by a bullet?  Or maybe a speeding locomotive?  Or had someone reach into their chest, grab hold of their heart and begin to squeeze and tug, but never leaves, just keeps their hand in your chest and squeezes and tugs until you feel like you can't take anymore, and then squeezes and tugs some more, and you figure out that you can take anything and everything, no matter how far you're pushed, just as long as you're still breathing? If you have, then I guess you may have some slight insight into what I'm feeling.This may seem a little off topic, but I was watching "The Last Song" (which isn't too bad of a movie, except it moves too fast), and this guy, who … [more]