Freefromevil 41-45, M

Last night i went out to get something for my wife. While on this trip a woman approched me. She was a bit taller than me with blond hair and the *** like a black woman. I guess my face told a story for she commented on my saddness. She asked me "is she worth the heart ache" i was surprised because i did not think it showed that things are pretty bad. Any how she gave me her number and i said i would call. I have not called but fell like i should because i am not sure if my marrige can be fixed. I will give my wife another chance to prove she still wants us. If she does'nt i guess i will be calling Cheryl.… [more]

I know i love her but am i in love . You should hear how we say i love you to each other. Sounds so fake. Yet we stay togethet. I believe we both are afraid of bring alone. The hassel of dating the crazy people you meet its a mad house. If i left her what would i do with my self. How long would it be before i'd find soneone that would give me that feeling. That feeling we all want. How can i start over when i cant let go. Have loved before but not like this. I'm hooked like a fish. She has been showing me that she still wants us. Her words and actions says so but her eyes, like my eyes say different. We've lost that loving feeling. But still we hang on.… [more]

Like most with a broken heart I was ready to pleadge never to fall in love again. To live in fear of being hurt. I have very little fear of physical pain why fear emotional pain. In stead I promise my self that as soon as I get out of this mess of a relationship I am in, I will seek out my new love.Why, because nothing beats that new lover efeeling. And in order to get it you have to deal with the break up. Beside I might get lucky and be happy with the next one and forever. It is possible, right ??… [more]

Love. I love you. My love. Love you always. Sad to say but I hope I nevet again use such words. Gave love all I had. It turned and bit me in the azz. Love my mom, my kids, my sis and the rest of the fam. Love another woman ? Will avoid that to the best of my abilites. Nevet want to break a heart never want mine to be crushed again. To much selfish people in this world. To many liars, to much bill sh.t. Will dedicate my life to making money. I do love money. Just want to be there for my kids. Will continue to show them all the love I can. But a spouse/ girlfriend no never again.… [more]