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I Struggle With My Body Image

I Have One Life And God Made Me Ugly There's something worst than being fat It's being ugly Like f-f-f-f***ing ugly People hate you People judge you Every birthday, i prayed I begged, i cried [more]
fuglygirlonthebench has shared 51 Mature Experiences
  • I Can't Stand Myself

    I Can't Stand That I Am Ugly, Stupid And Completely Worthless I look at myself in the mirror and i feel like dying, i swear i do. I see pretty people everywhere around me, see how they live their perfect lives! I can't pretend that I am happy with myself and i a… [more]
  • I Feel Like Im Not Good Enough

    I Will Never Be Good Enough For Myself When I was young, i was the happiest girl around. I appreaciate life, see all the good things, smile when the sun warms my skin with its rays but now, it is nothing but a blurred memory at the back of… [more]
  • I Have Never Been In a Relationship

    Lonely Little Girl It had never been one of my priorities because I always thought I need to work my butt out in my studies. I am a nerd. And what's worst being a nerd is that I'm shy and introverted so I don't have m… [more]
  • I Have Never Been In a Relationship

    Yeah...it's Pathetic it's horrible to admit, i've never fallen inlove, never have crushes on real people( only cleb crushes)...my life is boring… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    I called someone ugly.
    To those who are my friends or my followers here on ep would definitely know how bad I feel about myself. I am the ugliest, most conceited and temperamental human being on earth and most of the time, I hate myself,just for being who I am. It's not a phase, I hate myself so much, I would kill myself.But today, I feel bad for calling someone 'ugly', I don't mean to do that.It's just that it came out of my mouth and I am totally upset I said that because I am the uglier one and I have been emotionally tormented because people used to call me ugly, I am not letting myself continue with that cycle.I feel so bad.Thank god, it's just a guy on screen. But still, I am being judgemental. I am sorry,pl… [more]
  • I Should Have never Been Born

    Posted on: March 21st, 2012 at 3:32AM

    Sometimes, I feel I just shouldn't live, I don't know why I was born. I don't see anything more in this life for me to look forward to, I just want to end it! Can anyone tell me what kind of medicine can I get in the pharmacy and if I take an overdose of it, I can finally bid the world goodbye? Possible an international brand...Please help!… [more]

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  • I Am Too Tired Of Living

    Posted on: December 25th, 2011 at 4:50AM

    I know I've said this many times already, that I wanna die, I wanna give up...but I always end up not doing it because I don't know how.Jump off a tall building? There's no tall building in sightConsume poison? How am I suppose to get it.I am sick of waiting, waiting for God , Fate or whatever to make it better, to make it change. I have given this world enough time. I have been deppressed ever since I was 11. I can never imagine myself as I grown up, with a job and everything. Maybe it's because I am sure now that I would never grow up. I will never pass my teen years because I KNOW I have no way out but to take my own life. I never had ambitions, never had dreams because I know it's all us… [more]

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  • I hate people! >

    Posted on: December 14th, 2011 at 10:45PM

    People can't keep their mouth shut for once! Why can't they treat me as if I am invisible. I hate evryone in this planet!!!! Why can't I be invisible, doing what I want to do when I want without having people commenting on it? I always ignore people but why can't they ignore me?Why must everything I do be judged, be told right or wrong? Sometimes, I feel I am not suitable for this world. I am not suitable to live and I have no idea why God has to do this to me??! I sleep every night hoping I do not have to wake up tomorrow.I hate this world, I want to die! But I don't know how to do it? I wanna slit my wrists, but I am too afraid....I just don't want to exist anymore but I can't. I feel so t… [more]

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  • Heart Beats

    Posted on: January 29th, 2012 at 11:01AM

    Well, tomorrow, I will be off to college again.College sucks when you don't have a group of girl friends. College sucks when you are alone. Being alone is the worst feeling ever. I know, people keep telling me, make new friends, make new friends! They keep telling me I can't be the way I always am. ( quiet, socially awkward)Really, I am bad at making new friends, bad at trying to start a conversation. I act like a retard in public and around strangers. It's just terrifying! I hate being in new situations. I hate changes! Its freaky! Plus everyone in college are already in gangs. I am like this dorky newbie trying to fit in...omg...fml -___________-I feel like a fish out of water, I feel like… [more]

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