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Female , 36-40
Feeling depressed
I feel so empty & alone right now. For once in my life I'd like to be a priority in someone's life.

I'm bipolar that is being managed well the most part with meds. I struggle daily with back pain which I've had multiple surgeries which has made living a normal life a constant battle but to help make up for that I do always try my best to be there for my friends & my family. I consider myself a good person & an even better friend. I'll always be honest even if it means havoc in my life. The truth can sometimes cause pain but if your word isn't worth anything then neither is your self worth. I have big shoulders to cry on & I like knowing my friends & family can always count on me to be there for them. I love EP. I find at times I take long breaks from it but I love knowing it & my circle of friends are always there when I need it & them .

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Member Since Mar 12, 2012
Favorite Quote Don\'t rush perfection.
Heritage
Vices Coca-Cola
Politics Conservative
Horoscope Taurus
Special day
Books I don\'t read like I used to but I love novels ba<x>sed on vampires.
Music Classic Rock & Country
Movies I always love a good comedy. Laughter can always be a great dose of medicine.
Local Time May 26th, 8:49 PM

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    Posted on: March 17th, 2012 at 1:37AM

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  • Time to heal

    Posted on: March 13th, 2012 at 12:41AM

    I want to heal. I need to heal. I have had severe depression for years. I am on depression medicine but I still have many times I get like this for several days & sometimes weeks on end. I have tried suicide in the past, drinking excessively & now experiencing with drugs trying to "make myself feel better" but truth is it only makes me feel worse.  I have bounced from one relationship to the next breaking one heart after another since my divorce to my high school sweetheart/kids' dad. I have a wonderful husband now & I have been considering breaking it off with him after 4 1/2 years & I really know that would be a mistake.  I have so much more I need to say but I can't anymore right now. … [more]

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