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Female , 18-21

Last Seen Aug 24, 2012
Member Since May 07, 2010
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  • 100% Egyptian
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Politics Liberal
Horoscope Sagittarius
Special day 12-12
Books Classical literature, philosophy, dark mystery and the occasional teenage stuff like Pretty Little Liars, The House of Night.
Music Old school, classic, alternative rock and Jazz.
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I Am Bulimic

Any Suggestions? So lately i've been havin some difficulties gettin the food back up and throwin up, it takes longer than usual, leaves my throat sore as hell and sometimes doesn't even come out AT ALL! I read... [more]
geesthesex has shared 3 Mature Experiences
  • I Hate My Mother

    I Hate My Mom My mom is a control freak, organizing freak, over protective, has awful mood swing, is very aggressive and no one can bare a living with her. That's why i didn't blame my dad when he cheated on h… [more]
  • I Wish That I Could Sleep In Your Arms Tonight

    I Was In Your Arms Thinkin I Belonged There.. Ever since you walked away on me (which is somethin that was bound to happen sooner or later), I have missed every single detail about you and bein with you, including havin your strong, protective ar… [more]
  • I Want to Lose Weight

    I Want To Lose 3 Pounds So Freakin Bad! I'm 5'0.5 long and weight 106 pounds which is killing me! I want to be 103 so that it would be the ideal weight to my height... I've tried dieting, exercising everything but i just can… [more]
  • I Want To Know What Spot Makes You Weak In The Knees

    Hmmm *daydreams* He always knew how to send those butterflies to my stomach, make me weak in the knees and make my cheeks flush with heat and turn bright red. He'd grab me by the waist, press me tightly against … [more]
  • Friends Confessions

    I miss my dead best friend
    Dear Jake, I know you'll never read this but i just feel like writing it, it will help me get through the day. You've been always there for me, whenever i needed you you were there, you were the one i'd call at 4 in the morning if i wasn't feeling well you're the one i'd turn to whenever i have a problem or seek advice, you're the one who made my life bearable, but why did you simply decide to leave and end yours? why? I know your life hasn't been perfect and that you've had lots of **** going on and everything was messed up but it could've gotten fixed if you'd be patiant and let me help you, i would've done anything in and above my capasity to help you! i loved you Jake i couldn't imagine… [more]
  • Family Confessions

    i need a home
    Home isn't necceseraly as they all say where you were born or where you're family is, cuz if it was i would have already been home. I need a home where i can feel safe, wanted, accepted and loved for who i am, i need a home where people let me be happy for the sake of happiness not get all suspicious when i'm happy as if it's something i don't deserve. I need a family that understands me and loves me not one that makes my life like hell and i know will never allow any of my dreams to come true, i need to lead a normal teenage life with my ups and downs with guys and friends not my consistent fights and and **** with this damn so called family, i can't take it anymore, i wish and long for de… [more]
  • Love Confessions

    I want you back.. no scratch that, i want you back!
    I want to let you go so I can move n with my life and find happiness again, but I don't know how. I need you badly and I miss you and everything about being with you more than you can ever imagine. I'm still in love with you and it hurts deeply, I just can't stop feeling for you and forgetting about you and what we once had. The sting won't fade and the wound won't heal even if I beg them to. The only solution left is to surrender to the pain and give in to the suffering. To just be alive instead of actually living until time collects the broken shreds and fixes them. Listening to broken hearted songs, crying my eyes and heart out were never really my thing. I never got effected by love and… [more]
  • Health Confessions

    I did it... I made myself throw up!
    So i've been wanting to lose a few pounds for ages now, i hardly eat anything high on calories or whatsoever but yesterday i was so freakin hungry at night that i had some leftover macaroni (not that ive had it anytime soon), i felt so full afterwards and not to mention how damn guilty for eating it, so i just decided to get it out of my system and that way i wouldn't have to worry about putting on any weight. i must admit i thought and even tried doing it before but never succeeded and this time i have... i felt kinda bad about it cuz i promised somoene i wouldnt do it but i felt good! i knew that i wasnt gainin any weight and it made me feel good! but im afraid of doin it agan whenever i e… [more]
  • Why does it have to hurt this way

    Posted on: August 19th, 2010 at 10:26PM

    I don't know why i have to sit here with tears in my eyes. I don't know why i have to get hurt that way, everytime my heart opens and says hi. The sun is rising and i'm still awake in my bed. The world might be asleep but I can't close my eyelids. Tears are forming in my eyes making my vision blurry and clouded as it must have been when i first decided. Why does it hurt that way, why does it never heal? Tears start running down my cheeks, they tingle but yet burn.  The horizon is gone and is replaced with fog and cloud just like the fire in my heart has been burnt out.  And in the end of the day, I sit, here wondering why, why does it have to be like this? My mood: very crushed… [more]

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  • an escape

    Posted on: May 15th, 2010 at 9:40AM

    An esape is what people often look for but cannot find, you know what kind of escape i'm talking about? An escape from life and reality and drift into dreams and imgaination, a break from all the problems and **** life throws on you. many tend to get into drugs, alcohol and smoking when the going gets rough because they consider it their escape.... but these things are only self destructional stuff.... you destroy yourself by getting into them and make the people stay the hell away from you... it also effects your future in many ways. so lets remove these things from our list of options okay? i cant say that i'm perfect or that i have lots of experiences that make me the wisest no i'm n… [more]

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  • Heartache

    Posted on: February 14th, 2011 at 3:05PM

      The cold breeze of wind brushed my hair against my cheeks. The remarkable ocean smell crawled into my nose. I heard the sound of each wave hitting the rocks and dying ashore. I felt my feet sink in the cold, wet sand every time the water reaches them. The moonlight was the only thing shining this night. The night I will probably never forget. One of the worst nights of my life. I remember walking down this beach right after the sun set, if what they say is true and life flashes before one's eyes when his life is about to find its end then I’m pretty sure this beach will appear in many flashes. So after the sunset I needed a walk to breathe some fresh air into my lungs and clear the thought… [more]

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