Female , 16-17
I am back

I am a cutter and I have an ED. I love who I am and dont want to change! I say what is on my mind when it is on my mind. I am who I am. I love to talk and I will talk to anyone.

Last Seen Jan 6
Member Since Sep 17, 2011
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Local Time April 18th, 8:05 PM

I Have Insomnia

Sleeps Alone How many nights until you see monsters? How many days until you are a zombie? How many? Man I am tierd. I dont sleep yet I close my eyes. I feel as if I am dreaming but then I am flashed I all... [more]
  • I Think About Death A Lot

    Always On My Mind Death is always on my mind. I cant get it off. I have seen peope die old young all in between. It amazes me. I look at peole and the first thing that comes to mind is how they might die today. I have … [more]
  • I Want to Disappear and Start Over

    Click My Heels Three Times..... One...Two...Three.... I am sitting here eyes closed hopeing that I can be someone eles. Someone that no one knows. I want to be something new. I want to be... not me. To be pretty. To be … [more]
  • I Hate Myself

    Everyday I love my best friend Aaron... We are close closer than I am with anyone eles... We both love each other but were afried to tell each other the truth... Not only that I use him not for money or sex or… [more]
  • I Am a Teenage Lesbian

    Age 6 And Forth I have known that I liked females from the time I was 6. I grew up in a really religiost family. I thought I was wrong so I keep it to myself. I have a transgender brother/sister I have a lesbian sist… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Being left behind.The words I hate you.My tears being laughed at.Flying bugs.Goodbyes.Other people dieing.Becomeing addicted to drugs.LIveing without drugs.Getting fatter.Being the last person on Earth.Never haveing kids.Never falling inlove.Not being able to care for my kids.Divores.My teeth falling out.Not being able to write.Loveing myself.Being happy in life.Being old.My hair being grey.Wrinkles.Being fearful of life.Hights.Falling in love then being cheated on.STDs.Haveing a miscarrage,My fears..… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    My dad
    I didnt cry until 2 weeks after my dad died. I dont know why but I didnt! I tried to. I was more mad than sad that he was gone. That I would never here him say the three forbiden words "I love you" I wanted to hit something not cry! I was mad that I was away when it happened! Hes not my real dad but the only person that I have ever called dad! I still wake up thanking that I will see him!!! He died April 11, 2009, and I stil wake up hopeing to see him. Beliveing that he will be there teaseing my about my bed head! Telling me that I look like a rat sleep in my hair. But then I realize that he is not there and I want to die right then and there... just to fall back to sleep and die! I love my … [more]
  • Revenge Confessions

    This was a little mean
    So one time this girl pulled up my shirt in the hall way... I had just got done cutting and every one saw... also I wasnt wearing a bra and she pulled my shirt over my head, So I when I over heard when the drug dogs were coming in I put over H, Coke, Weed, pills, all diffrent kind of sh*t in her locker... She is still in jail... and can never go to a school in the county we live in.... I know it was a little mean but everyone took pictures of me!!!… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    Last night.....
    I had to get stiches last night I cut to deep.... Very very very deep.... I bleed a lot....  really mean a lot! It was amazing... Now I am picking at the stiching.... I am even bleeding again... I even cut this morrning.... Yea I might be a little crazy I know, but I am who I am.... I want to bleed again... even now. More and better.....… [more]