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IF Obama was a dictator, the Republicans wouldn't be ABLE to sue him.

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Member Since Sep 21, 2010
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Heritage
  • a little Greek
  • and a little German
  • and a little French-Canadian
  • and a little American Indian
  • and a little English
  • and a little Irish
  • and a little Scottish
  • and a little Unknown
Vices smoking, drinking, drugging
Politics Anarchist
Horoscope Gemini
Special day 6-16
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Music Anything that catches my ear.
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I Want People to Share Their Poetry

Lonely Tree Sometimes I wished I'd have toys, other years games. But I don't really remember when, I wished for a woman in my bed. Maybe when I was ringing groceries, into a laser eyed counter. [more]
GnatFree has shared 2 Mature Experiences
  • I Am Sad and Lonely

    Isolated I can't find anyone. I haven't had a date in almost a year. I have no idea how to meet people. I have no idea how to speak to people. Things are really hard and it would be nice to find someone who wo… [more]
  • I Am Lonely

    Cut Off (not A Pun) I don't really know how to say this...I'm transgender. This has been weighing on me my whole life and after nearly killing myself I decided to come out. However my being true to myself has resulted in… [more]
  • I Love Hardcore and Screamo

    Letting Out Your Demons I was 17, that was over six years ago. I remember buying discog of the first screamo band I ever got into. pg.99. Totally destroyed my view on what aggressive music was. I had been going through a gri… [more]
  • I Took the Personality Disorder Test

    Results Well, I don't think this is good news. I disagree with the dependant and OCD but that's it I think. Disorder | Rating Paranoid: Moderate Schizoid: Moderate Schizo… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I'm a politics junkie
    Okay, I'll admit it, I find CNN and Cspan riveting. When the primaries happened last week I was glued to my tv. I just can't stop paying attention. I find beltway insider information something i can't do without.I've seen most of president Obama's speeches and have even shushed people in public places to hear the news. Occasionally when I was at work when someone would come into work I'd ask them if I could glance at the paper. I pay attention to too much to be sane. I know who benjmain netenyahu is. Most americans couldn't point out afganistan on a map. It's not that I think I have the attention span, i just have the vocabulary. even so sometimes they say something that just makes no god d… [more]
  • Other Confessions

    iwishididn'thatemyself.com
    I hate myself. Is it a construct of my own mind or was it imposed on me by others? I don't know the answer to this question. I do know that years ago and still today sometimes, I wanted to be a different person, and live far far away. However these fantasies would always crumble when I realized the sheer impossibility of this. I hate my submissive nature, it comes from growing up in a family where I was told what to do, where I would go, and how my life was meant to be lived. I hated everyone. My sister for telling her friends for years that I was adopted. My mother for dictating every part of my life. My father for never going against her judgement, ever. I hated school because it was fille… [more]
  • Venting Confessions

    I Have No Patience
    I have a confession, I'm an impatient person. If I'm in the express line at the grocery store and the person in front of me has one item over the limit I get annoyed. I prefer self-scan ones because I used to be a cashier and I can be done with my whole order before some cashiers get halfway through one order. When someone is driving exactly the speed limit on a road where NO ONE follows the speed limit I get annoyed but hold back from tailgating. You would think that when they see no one in front of them and dozens of cars behind theirs they'd think of speeding up a little, but no. I especially lose my mind when someone is taking an illegal left turn and just sits there waiting for an openi… [more]
  • Zine Clipping on my band!

    Posted on: March 11th, 2011 at 12:46AM

    "Meanwhile, on the lunatic fringe, The Melty Bird has risen from the ashes once again to put out a CD highlighting songs of their explosively short career. Remixing is being finished up and will possibly be done by the weeks end, then work begins on the cover art and inserts. It will be released the end of march on No Commercial Value Records, a brand new label based in Manchester, NH that specializes in a rough raw style, recorded oftentimes only at open mic or poetry nights. Also at the end of march NCV Records will be releasing Not Applicable's Debut EP "A Split Personality" With two extra songs written while sharing practice space with **** Hungry ****, Previously unreleased! Coming soo… [more]

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  • I have no life and must scream

    Posted on: January 12th, 2011 at 5:32PM

    Sometimes I get so frustrated I just want to scream, punch walls, and bawl. My life is okay but it could be so much better and it could be so much worse. I'm furious as hell because my sort of gf basically came two inches away from ******* some other girl. We basically have an open relationship because we live so far away but when she nearly ***** someone that lives one town away from me I want to ******* scream. I can't help but feel like my territory has been invaded and it makes me want to smash the girl's face in and yell at my psuedo gf.It's a ****** up relationship, she gets mad at me when I'm jealous but she then states she'd be just as jealous in my situation. It makes me want to scr… [more]

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  • Full 40s and Empty Park Benches

    Posted on: March 21st, 2011 at 8:41PM

    When my last friend has said good byeI'll shed tears, yeah, I'll finally cryI'll walk down an empty streetAnd realize all I have is meThe freeing feeling is so very fleetingI'll roll a joint, buy a 40, and drink publiclyJust hoping for a minuteSomeone will ask to sit with meAnd I'll try not to be hopingThat they'll one day be sitting and drinkingUnder that same tree with meRecalling just how they stumbled into me.… [more]

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  • People Don't Keep Photographs of Things They Want To Forget

    Posted on: November 7th, 2010 at 9:17PM

    I can hear the wind, I know it's blowing cold, I had no idea I'd live to be 23 years old, I am tired of chill winds and a silent din, the rumble I feel everytime our eyes meet, I know you can feel it too, but we can't ever speak, of this again, it's pipe dreams we've erased and hidden, It's all within, black lungs, scarred throats, and a liver that's turning to concrete, sidewalk stories, empty forties, marked my final paycheck, and I'm, tired of chewing, on my nails and my skin, I no longer wonder why, I'm so ****** up inside, it's just the reflection of the world in my eyes, rapsy screams, agonizing melodies, I'm letting out my pain, one note at a time, I still call you, just to talk, and … [more]

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