I'm pretty chilled out..
I self-harm quite a lot but NOT FOR ATTENTION!
I have had a bad past so far and hope to make it much better by sharing my stories and trying to help people In the same situation.
I made a website to raise awareness of self-harm so please check it out!
so check it out and let me know what you think!!
My Life Story. Part 4 This past week has been mad. So busy yet so much time to think and so many things to think about. Iv'e been through police interviews and recorded interviews, now i have one of the biggest decisions t… [more]
My Life Story It's gonna be a long one folks so you might want to settle down with a cup of tea and a biccy, alright here goes.... *please don't judge me with this story.. this story may be triggering t… [more]
My Life Story.. Part 2 Another long one guys, No snide comments please. (3rd January 2013) Me, Mum, my sister and her boyfriend went shopping in Telford today. Mum said It was going to be a “girlie” … [more]
Off To Boarding School Well, I guess I've finally pushed away too hard, made my last taken too many overdoses. It because people don't understand. They really have no idea. They just think they do. But my dad and mum … [more]
If you met me you wouldn't see the real me..If you met me ever you would come across a bubbly, happy 16 year old girl. You would never know what I was thinking and feeling inside, the feeling of uselessness, hate, misery. Inside i'm hurting.. the cuts all over my arms and legs are plain enough but you would never see them. i'd paint a big smile on my face just to please you, to make you proud of me. But you wouldn't see the real me... ever. I would never open up, but just tell you what you want to hear, "I'm fine" while I would really mean.. "I'm hurting inside more than ever before, I'm scared of what i'll do to myself if I carry on, I need you to see that but I can't tell you, that would ruin everything I worked for." Inside i'm li… [more]
Does anyone else find it strange writing 2013?! 2012 went so fast yet some many things happened... strange right? I'm really hoping my cuts and scars will heal by July, I know it seems ages away but at the rate i'm going I will have plenty of new ones to add to my collection. Everyone wonders how exacually self-harmers can hurt themselves but to me it just seems to come naturally. It's like a roller coaster, your scared at first but then once you've done it you just love the rush you get and want to do it again and again.. bit of a naff example but there you go. What really annoys me is the fact that people take the **** out off self-harmers and say things bef… [more]
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Well it's now 1:45am and I haven't been to sleep yet, I'm not even tired, the urge to cut again has just come over me. I have tons of homework and jobs to get done before I go back to school, not enough time. Don't really want to go back to school and have to face everyone with all there questions.. Especially my teacher.. she will come and get me out of lessons to talk to me. Ask me how I "coped" over the holidays, well I won't be telling her about my overdose... I'm fine. Well when I did eventually go to sleep I hope I wouldn't wake up.. I don't know why but I'm just so terrified about going back to school, I don't want to face anybody, because I know in the back of my head I will be screa… [more]
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Ok, so I've never really done a blog before... like ever! I'm not even really sure what I'm suppose to write on here so I'm just gonna talk about my feelings and battle with self-harming, everyday life for me and stuff like that.. so here goes... Ok.. so New Year new start for me.. I want to get my self-harming sorted out and stop feeling like a freak... New Year Revolution.. to keep my feelings to myself and don't tell anyone else.. that way I wont hurt everyone. Sounds easy right?! Wrong. Sometimes the pain get so much I just have to tell someone. It's like I dying to tell someone not for attention but because I have been holding it in for so long it starts to hurt inside. If… [more]
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