Female , 41-45

Single female whose love of music and writing is only superseded by her desire to help people who are in need. Much like a mermaid, I adore the water and the sunshine.

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Member Since Mar 23, 2011
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Local Time May 30th, 1:01 PM

I Have a Confession

I cannot pretend that I am holding a daisy and pulling each petal while asking aloud, "he loves me, he loves me not." No, I have received confirmation upon my very own request that "he loves me, never... [more]
heartprotection has shared 1 Mature Experience
  • I Want You to Write a Letter to Your Future Self

    Dear Future Self Dear Future Self, Now that you are older and wiser, surely you have come to the realization that all of your trials and tribulations have been for a reason. You spent so many years putting other… [more]
  • I Was Bullied

    Does Karma Even Exist? As a little girl I was painfully shy and it was quite obvious as I often spent significant periods of time staring down at my feet rather than taking the chance of having to make eye contact with some… [more]
  • I Am Lebanese

    Chubby Thighs Research shows that one's fat may be attributed, to some degree, to the consumption of high fat foods in one's youth.  Butter, honey, pistachios, OH MY! My Grandma Marie's baklava was like no other. … [more]
  • I Have Multiple Sclerosis

    Profanity I was diagnosed on May 17, 2005 with Relapsing Remitting Multiple Sclerosis after having gone to doctors for over ten years in an effort to figure out what was wrong with me. They treated me as if I w… [more]
  • My Tears

    Posted on: May 29th, 2011 at 5:03PM

    It is so difficult to stop loving a man who shows you his most wonderful attributes on a regular basis. Never would I wish for the sweet and wonderful man to show me his angry side again, I just need to try hard and remember otherwise this break-up will make me lose all faith in beautiful people.… [more]


  • The occasional pain of loneliness

    Posted on: May 1st, 2011 at 6:21PM

    It has come to my realization that the occasional pain of loneliness is actually better than being an occupant of an emotional rollercoaster that is not only unpredictable but incredibly dangerous. The highs are amazingly wonderful, holding my hand in church and touching my face with the palm of his hand as though he loves me. The lows are extremely painful, saying things like he doesnt feel he needs to explain to me who he will invite or not invite to his sons wedding for his date. Funny, we are exclusive to one another, I promised monogamy and wondered if when he said he booked a hotel room for himself he was trying to let me know that I was not invited. I was actually nervous to ask him b… [more]


  • Peace and Quiet

    Posted on: February 1st, 2013 at 8:03PM

    Okay, maybe I did say that I was ready for date but am I? If someone were to actually ask me would I be able to accept the invitation? My ex has been able to move on (almost immediately after I am guessing..or perhaps during) after "we" ended; why can't I? I have repeatedly asked myself this even though I know the answer. Those who can move on immediately are able to do so because they did not love us. In this case he never loved me, I was but a mere convenience much like a 7-11...always happy to serve him when he arrived and always sorry to see him go. The difference is that he never paid me.My relapsing remitting ms scares me but I suppose knowing that I may never date again scares me more… [more]


  • test

    Posted on: May 29th, 2011 at 4:56PM

    This is a test to make sure that I properly handled my "cookies' as instructed. … [more]